Wind whipping,
sky grey and black.
Leafs blowing,
rain drops falling.
Your hair blowing in the wind,
like millions of threads flowing in a river.
Soft arms around me,
flowing hair on my chest,
caressing your warm body.
Soft rosy lips pressed against mine,
kissing you softly,
with my love.
Silky hands holding mine,
soft as the finest silk.
I love you...
...always.
11/17/88
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Why did I...
Why did I cause you pain,
that hit like a freight train,
why did I do it?
I hurt you,
I hurt,
my chest feels heavy,
I’m sorry doesn’t help,
to relieve the pain we both have inside.
I can’t get you off my mind,
I love you so.
Hold me once more
as we did before
Love came first,
pain was unthought of.
If you will not have me
then no one shall...
...ever more...
that hit like a freight train,
why did I do it?
I hurt you,
I hurt,
my chest feels heavy,
I’m sorry doesn’t help,
to relieve the pain we both have inside.
I can’t get you off my mind,
I love you so.
Hold me once more
as we did before
Love came first,
pain was unthought of.
If you will not have me
then no one shall...
...ever more...
Why
Hold me near
hold me dear
never let me go
I need you so.
You let me go,
why?
I thought we had
that special spark.
My love was true
what did I do
to loose you?
Was it another?
Is it another?
Tell me why
you love this other.
Was I pushy,
or too mushy?
I need to know,
why you don’t hold me near,
why you don’t hold me dear...
...anymore.
11/13/88
hold me dear
never let me go
I need you so.
You let me go,
why?
I thought we had
that special spark.
My love was true
what did I do
to loose you?
Was it another?
Is it another?
Tell me why
you love this other.
Was I pushy,
or too mushy?
I need to know,
why you don’t hold me near,
why you don’t hold me dear...
...anymore.
11/13/88
Welcome
Welcome...
Welcome to hell,
where I have been,
all my life,
pain, suffering, strife,
unseen blood,
all over.
Hearts ripped out,
by ones we love.
Stomped on again,
and again.
Destroyed,
given pain by my parents,
because I want to do.
Taking out on one younger,
face me,
attack the stronger one,
never the ones,
who doesn’t deserve,
living in hell,
where I have been.
Welcome to hell,
where I have been,
all my life,
pain, suffering, strife,
unseen blood,
all over.
Hearts ripped out,
by ones we love.
Stomped on again,
and again.
Destroyed,
given pain by my parents,
because I want to do.
Taking out on one younger,
face me,
attack the stronger one,
never the ones,
who doesn’t deserve,
living in hell,
where I have been.
Watching...
Watching...
Watching from afar,
my eyes open to everything,
wide awake inside,
watching...
waiting for my time,
waiting for my chance,
back in the shadows,
still I stand,
watching...
words spoken,
words lost,
still I sit,
watching...
time slips by,
faces change,
still I kneel,
watching...
madness slowly creeping in,
mind seeking sanity,
heart yearning,
still I lean,
watching...
Watching from afar,
my eyes open to everything,
wide awake inside,
watching...
waiting for my time,
waiting for my chance,
back in the shadows,
still I stand,
watching...
words spoken,
words lost,
still I sit,
watching...
time slips by,
faces change,
still I kneel,
watching...
madness slowly creeping in,
mind seeking sanity,
heart yearning,
still I lean,
watching...
Waiting for death...
Waiting for death.
As I sit here
waiting for death
counting the hours
before I die
before I die by my hand
feelings of hatred
feelings of pain
feelings of sorry
pulsate through my brain
make me shiver to watch
to be able to do nothing
except to die before dishonor
suicidal tendencies
is all I’ve had
is what I’ll do
die now before there is anymore
pain and suffering
the stench of death
attracts me now
more then ever
hold me breath
until death
no one can stop me this time
or ever
no one to control me
wait for death
counting the hours
before I die
before I die and my world ends
let death be quick...
As I sit here
waiting for death
counting the hours
before I die
before I die by my hand
feelings of hatred
feelings of pain
feelings of sorry
pulsate through my brain
make me shiver to watch
to be able to do nothing
except to die before dishonor
suicidal tendencies
is all I’ve had
is what I’ll do
die now before there is anymore
pain and suffering
the stench of death
attracts me now
more then ever
hold me breath
until death
no one can stop me this time
or ever
no one to control me
wait for death
counting the hours
before I die
before I die and my world ends
let death be quick...
Violent people...
Violent people,
trained to kill,
forced to survive,
never really lived,
don’t want to die,
serve the country,
protect the interests,
protect the loved ones,
I swear to protect this country,
the land of confusion,
this is the time,
give us the place,
and we will kill,
trained to do so,
fight til death,
or insanity.
trained to kill,
forced to survive,
never really lived,
don’t want to die,
serve the country,
protect the interests,
protect the loved ones,
I swear to protect this country,
the land of confusion,
this is the time,
give us the place,
and we will kill,
trained to do so,
fight til death,
or insanity.
Unsaid Feelings
Unsaid feelings
tears fall
raindrops fall
can’t believe myself.
Mind confused
out of control
wanting to be freed
independence limited
I am just one.
Can’t wake up
to see the real me
locking up feelings
locking up me.
Can’t really love
can’t share anything anymore
hide it inside
never let it free.
Hide the pain
don’t show love
a lonely tear forms
falls from my eye
as the rain falls.
So I never feel
or live free
totally free
my mind pounds,
alone.
One tear alone
no one to talk to
can not say my feelings
because I don’t know
what they are...
Anymore.
tears fall
raindrops fall
can’t believe myself.
Mind confused
out of control
wanting to be freed
independence limited
I am just one.
Can’t wake up
to see the real me
locking up feelings
locking up me.
Can’t really love
can’t share anything anymore
hide it inside
never let it free.
Hide the pain
don’t show love
a lonely tear forms
falls from my eye
as the rain falls.
So I never feel
or live free
totally free
my mind pounds,
alone.
One tear alone
no one to talk to
can not say my feelings
because I don’t know
what they are...
Anymore.
Torn between two
Torn between two,
the love for both burning inside,
tearing me apart,
bit by bit.
I want to hold them both,
love them both,
they say it’s wrong,
choose one,
can’t have both.
Who do I choose,
of the two,
I want them both,
not just one,
who do I choose...
...Life or death?
the love for both burning inside,
tearing me apart,
bit by bit.
I want to hold them both,
love them both,
they say it’s wrong,
choose one,
can’t have both.
Who do I choose,
of the two,
I want them both,
not just one,
who do I choose...
...Life or death?
Tore my heart apart
Tore my heart apart,
doused the fire in my eyes,
left me alone,
changed from the one I know,
the one I loved.
I made to many mistakes,
left on my own two feet,
I’ve been there before,
I’ll be there again.
Hated by hundreds,
loved by few,
one was you,
then tore my heart apart,
doused the fire in my eyes,
Left me alone...
...again.
doused the fire in my eyes,
left me alone,
changed from the one I know,
the one I loved.
I made to many mistakes,
left on my own two feet,
I’ve been there before,
I’ll be there again.
Hated by hundreds,
loved by few,
one was you,
then tore my heart apart,
doused the fire in my eyes,
Left me alone...
...again.
Tired Eyes
Tired eyes...
Unicorns glide through the shadows
Pegasus runs through the sky
It’s time to dream of the fantasy,
fill yourself with the magic of nowhere, everywhere.
Elven laughter sings
Fairies whisper to the wind
Leprechauns polish the sun
Wizards speak enchanted words with the trees
Dragons laugh with the rain
An enchanted forest buzzing with life,
lost yet not forgotten,
another Ogre slips into unconsciousness.
It’s time to dream of the fantasy,
fill yourself with the magic of nowhere, everywhere.
Fantasy land not far away,
just behind tired eyes.
Unicorns glide through the shadows
Pegasus runs through the sky
It’s time to dream of the fantasy,
fill yourself with the magic of nowhere, everywhere.
Elven laughter sings
Fairies whisper to the wind
Leprechauns polish the sun
Wizards speak enchanted words with the trees
Dragons laugh with the rain
An enchanted forest buzzing with life,
lost yet not forgotten,
another Ogre slips into unconsciousness.
It’s time to dream of the fantasy,
fill yourself with the magic of nowhere, everywhere.
Fantasy land not far away,
just behind tired eyes.
Time Floats Away
Time floats away,
pain fades out,
love dies out,
the spark fades with time.
Embers loose their brightness,
time takes away a lot,
the sights in your eyes change,
first one,
then another.
Thoughts vaporize,
into the past,
and time floats away,
Vaporizing.
pain fades out,
love dies out,
the spark fades with time.
Embers loose their brightness,
time takes away a lot,
the sights in your eyes change,
first one,
then another.
Thoughts vaporize,
into the past,
and time floats away,
Vaporizing.
Three Little Poems
Touch me now.
To your beauty I bow.
Soft hair,
flowing unbound.
Set me free to love you...
...eternally.
-----------------------------
Beauty unchained.
Love freely given,
to the one you love.
Hold on,
never let go,
or to all you will lose forever...
Your unchained beauty.
----------------------------------
You let go,
of the final blow.
You said no more,
you closed the door,
To the one,
who held you near to their heart...
...always.
To your beauty I bow.
Soft hair,
flowing unbound.
Set me free to love you...
...eternally.
-----------------------------
Beauty unchained.
Love freely given,
to the one you love.
Hold on,
never let go,
or to all you will lose forever...
Your unchained beauty.
----------------------------------
You let go,
of the final blow.
You said no more,
you closed the door,
To the one,
who held you near to their heart...
...always.
The Twinkle of a Star
The twinkle of a star,
moonbeams coming down from above.
The night sky reflecting in our eyes.
Together we lay,
on a blanket on a hill.
We are holding each other.
You in my arms and I in yours,
watching stars float away,
only to be seen in yours,
when they look into mine.
We watch all night,
just pausing to say,
I love you,
and steal a kiss.
We are swept away with the stars,
we make up pictures in the stars,
we smile,
then laugh.
We are in love,
the only ones who knows our stories,
is the bright stars.
A twinkle of a star,
means to me,
it’s listening to us,
because we are in love,
by a twinkle of a star.
moonbeams coming down from above.
The night sky reflecting in our eyes.
Together we lay,
on a blanket on a hill.
We are holding each other.
You in my arms and I in yours,
watching stars float away,
only to be seen in yours,
when they look into mine.
We watch all night,
just pausing to say,
I love you,
and steal a kiss.
We are swept away with the stars,
we make up pictures in the stars,
we smile,
then laugh.
We are in love,
the only ones who knows our stories,
is the bright stars.
A twinkle of a star,
means to me,
it’s listening to us,
because we are in love,
by a twinkle of a star.
The Stallion
The stallion rides
across a clear blue sky
flying high,
flying fast.
My love will last,
forgetting my past,
of pain and heartache,
of lost love.
The stallions eyes,
of warm summer skies,
I will never forget.
You see I love you,
you see I need you,
let me run by your side,
Forever...
across a clear blue sky
flying high,
flying fast.
My love will last,
forgetting my past,
of pain and heartache,
of lost love.
The stallions eyes,
of warm summer skies,
I will never forget.
You see I love you,
you see I need you,
let me run by your side,
Forever...
The Rancid Smell
The rancid smell,
of death in the air,
sitting in a trench,
filled with blood,
filled with death.
I remember the training,
I remembered to keep my head low,
bombs burst,
rifles crack,
machine gun starts it’s dance,
more will fall,
less will live.
Charge over the top,
into no-mans land,
feet stumble,
I try to dodge the fallen,
rifles cracking,
I run on,
towards the enemy,
jumped out with a hundred or two,
fifty or so left.
The call is sounded,
we all turn back,
fresh blood spilled,
over the old,
my mind on fire,
I’ve seen my opponents face.
Scared,
frightened,
young,
just like me,
in the trench.
The smell of death,
worse then before,
with the blood of hundreds,
glistening in the sun.
Just like me,
scared,
confused,
young,
in the trench,
scared of the enemy,
smelling the blood,
seeing the bodies,
just like me,
of our friends,
everywhere.
of death in the air,
sitting in a trench,
filled with blood,
filled with death.
I remember the training,
I remembered to keep my head low,
bombs burst,
rifles crack,
machine gun starts it’s dance,
more will fall,
less will live.
Charge over the top,
into no-mans land,
feet stumble,
I try to dodge the fallen,
rifles cracking,
I run on,
towards the enemy,
jumped out with a hundred or two,
fifty or so left.
The call is sounded,
we all turn back,
fresh blood spilled,
over the old,
my mind on fire,
I’ve seen my opponents face.
Scared,
frightened,
young,
just like me,
in the trench.
The smell of death,
worse then before,
with the blood of hundreds,
glistening in the sun.
Just like me,
scared,
confused,
young,
in the trench,
scared of the enemy,
smelling the blood,
seeing the bodies,
just like me,
of our friends,
everywhere.
The Prettiest Flower
The prettiest flower...
Why can’t I have the prettiest flower,
so tender and soft,
so gentle and mild,
yet ever so wild.
Could that wild flower ever love me?
Could it be mine?
I am blind,
yet I can see the beauty,
and not a flaw in it’s petals.
The prettiest flower, come with me,
so I can feel love in my heart once again,
and be with the prettiest flower,
I have ever seen,
Forever...
Why can’t I have the prettiest flower,
so tender and soft,
so gentle and mild,
yet ever so wild.
Could that wild flower ever love me?
Could it be mine?
I am blind,
yet I can see the beauty,
and not a flaw in it’s petals.
The prettiest flower, come with me,
so I can feel love in my heart once again,
and be with the prettiest flower,
I have ever seen,
Forever...
The Love
The love of a lifetime is only inches away,
yet it seems like miles before our lips meet,
because my love is so strong,
I can’t stand not having in my arms,
pressed against me forever...
yet it seems like miles before our lips meet,
because my love is so strong,
I can’t stand not having in my arms,
pressed against me forever...
The Gate
The gate,
where will it lead,
where will it go.
Want to leave,
want to stay,
afraid of the pain.
Fueled by hate,
will I change,
will I face more.
Don’t know,
a life of happiness,
or horror again.
Do I open it,
do I lock it,
don’t know,
if I should.
where will it lead,
where will it go.
Want to leave,
want to stay,
afraid of the pain.
Fueled by hate,
will I change,
will I face more.
Don’t know,
a life of happiness,
or horror again.
Do I open it,
do I lock it,
don’t know,
if I should.
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Tender words...
Tender words...
Tender words,
help me,
through the day.
A kind word goes a long way,
helps people have a smile all day.
A smile set a persons day,
to be happy and gay,
to be friendly and nice,
not cold as ice.
People forced to be together,
become unhappy,
become afraid,
tender words and a smile,
will help anyone,
through any day,
that seems to have it on for them.
Tender words,
help me,
through the day.
A kind word goes a long way,
helps people have a smile all day.
A smile set a persons day,
to be happy and gay,
to be friendly and nice,
not cold as ice.
People forced to be together,
become unhappy,
become afraid,
tender words and a smile,
will help anyone,
through any day,
that seems to have it on for them.
Tender tears...
Tender tears
fall to the earth
run down your face
the smile on your face brightens the day
in a different way
drops on your body
never letting go
just like me
rain in your eyes
you brush away
now the tender tears
that fall from the sky
Fall with sadness...
For me.
fall to the earth
run down your face
the smile on your face brightens the day
in a different way
drops on your body
never letting go
just like me
rain in your eyes
you brush away
now the tender tears
that fall from the sky
Fall with sadness...
For me.
Tender songs...
Tender songs on the radio,
remind me of you,
of your soft kisses.
All my needs are fulfilled,
just by touching your skin,
every day my love grows stronger,
every moment my heart grows dearer.
Needing you every second of the day,
I need you to hold me,
so every dream is of you,
so every dream is sweet and remembered,
like tender songs on the radio.
remind me of you,
of your soft kisses.
All my needs are fulfilled,
just by touching your skin,
every day my love grows stronger,
every moment my heart grows dearer.
Needing you every second of the day,
I need you to hold me,
so every dream is of you,
so every dream is sweet and remembered,
like tender songs on the radio.
Tender love...
Tender love is the goal,
smooth out all the bumps,
making a happy relation,
between the two in love.
Just three words said with feeling,
can help smooth it out,
“I am sorry” is one,
the other, “I love you.”
Can calm the savage beast in us all.
Save the relationship for each other,
not for anyone or anything.
Just never hurt loved one,
just talk it out,
because tender love is the goal.
smooth out all the bumps,
making a happy relation,
between the two in love.
Just three words said with feeling,
can help smooth it out,
“I am sorry” is one,
the other, “I love you.”
Can calm the savage beast in us all.
Save the relationship for each other,
not for anyone or anything.
Just never hurt loved one,
just talk it out,
because tender love is the goal.
Tears fall...
Tears fall,
for friends lost,
for unknown friends,
fallen to the enemy.
Unknown soldiers,
buried in a place of honor,
unknown to anyone.
Died for loved ones,
fighting for freedom.
Tears fall,
for the fighting men.
for friends lost,
for unknown friends,
fallen to the enemy.
Unknown soldiers,
buried in a place of honor,
unknown to anyone.
Died for loved ones,
fighting for freedom.
Tears fall,
for the fighting men.
Teach me again...
Teach me again,
how to live,
how to love,
not sure of the facts.
Help me love.
The others destroyed me,
taught me pain.
Simple love,
is what to teach,
complex is to much,
for a frail body now.
Love to heal,
the wounded heart,
repair the damage,
to the emotion.
Teach me again,
with your love,
how to live,
how to love,
and I will love you,
in return,
faithfully,
forever.
*I live a life of pain from memories and words. Pain gives me total anger that somehow, I get power from. Words that take my mind onto a game board and play til I go insane. Memories of the past driving me insane.*
how to live,
how to love,
not sure of the facts.
Help me love.
The others destroyed me,
taught me pain.
Simple love,
is what to teach,
complex is to much,
for a frail body now.
Love to heal,
the wounded heart,
repair the damage,
to the emotion.
Teach me again,
with your love,
how to live,
how to love,
and I will love you,
in return,
faithfully,
forever.
*I live a life of pain from memories and words. Pain gives me total anger that somehow, I get power from. Words that take my mind onto a game board and play til I go insane. Memories of the past driving me insane.*
Taking a chance...
Taking a chance...
They say if you stop looking for love,
You’ll find it.
I guess that’s how we met.
Two strangers searching for others,
Bump in each other.
Sparks!
Fireworks!
There was none.
Just two people taking a chance.
Well, soon you wedged your way into this,
Little niche of mine.
Or, I wedged my way into yours,
and, slowly we fell into lust.
Passion!
Ecstasy!
There was none,
Just two people taking a chance,
then I guess it happened one day,
I loved you,
Or you loved me.
You became my best friend and treasure,
I let you in.
Friendship,
Understanding.
This is true love,
When the risks pay off.
They say if you stop looking for love,
You’ll find it.
I guess that’s how we met.
Two strangers searching for others,
Bump in each other.
Sparks!
Fireworks!
There was none.
Just two people taking a chance.
Well, soon you wedged your way into this,
Little niche of mine.
Or, I wedged my way into yours,
and, slowly we fell into lust.
Passion!
Ecstasy!
There was none,
Just two people taking a chance,
then I guess it happened one day,
I loved you,
Or you loved me.
You became my best friend and treasure,
I let you in.
Friendship,
Understanding.
This is true love,
When the risks pay off.
Take me where...
Take me where
the sun shines
all the time
never fading.
Tropical trees
buzzing bees
birds flying high
flying free.
Unicorns play
throughout the day
where dreams fly free
unbound.
Slight breezes
my hair it teases
cooling my face
gently.
Sounds
all around
of animals far
of animals near
I know I’m not alone...
...anymore...
the sun shines
all the time
never fading.
Tropical trees
buzzing bees
birds flying high
flying free.
Unicorns play
throughout the day
where dreams fly free
unbound.
Slight breezes
my hair it teases
cooling my face
gently.
Sounds
all around
of animals far
of animals near
I know I’m not alone...
...anymore...
Take me...
Take me...
Take me where the sun dances,
on clear blue waters.
Hidden from sight,
filled with light.
Working all the time,
closed in a stuffy room.
Writing reports,
of all sizes and sorts.
Breathe fresh air,
relax in a place,
away from time and space,
getting away from the work I bear.
Reflections of sunset,
in my eyes,
burns of purity,
causing me to cry.
Ripples of water,
tapping my boat,
reminds me of a heartbeat,
and a simple hello.
It’s so peaceful,
it’s so quiet,
I don’t want to leave,
or leave behind this solitude.
Gentle winds,
ripple the water,
distorting the sunset,
as I watch it in the water.
Warm breezes,
gently whisper secrets,
of times past,
of those yet to come.
Gold and amber leaf's,
on ancient trees,
come and go,
silently going on strong,
then changing and leaving this place.
I don’t want to leave,
I want to stay,
on the water,
hand halfway in,
and be all alone...
...and then,
Maybe...
Share it again one day with someone...
And maybe then it will be..
Forever...
Stars above...
Stars above
twinkle in your eyes
telling me softly
you love me.
Green eyes set the stars in a soft green glow
soaring through the stars
we fly high together
never letting go of each other.
Arms around me
tell me your still there
tell me I’m not alone
songs you sing me
tell me I’m not alone...
... anymore.
twinkle in your eyes
telling me softly
you love me.
Green eyes set the stars in a soft green glow
soaring through the stars
we fly high together
never letting go of each other.
Arms around me
tell me your still there
tell me I’m not alone
songs you sing me
tell me I’m not alone...
... anymore.
Standing...
Standing like Hitler,
over his silent troops,
I dare not say a word,
to him at all.
One wrong move,
one solitary word,
taken away,
less then perfect.
Hundred soldiers,
standing in line,
hundred soldiers,
standing in line,
hundred soldiers,
standing silent,
motionless.
Do I dare breathe,
or twitch an eye?
Standing silent,
never moving,
sitting straight,
back breaking,
wanting to move.
Hitler stands silent,
in front,
holding a box,
plain,
unwritten on,
minds wander,
imagination running free.
Snap to attention,
form a line,
collect your reward,
SS badges.
What we wanted,
what we earned.
Remember, obedience until death.
Old friends say,
it means Satan’s Servant.
I don’t care,
it’s what we wanted,
it’s what we earned,
it’s what we’ll serve.
over his silent troops,
I dare not say a word,
to him at all.
One wrong move,
one solitary word,
taken away,
less then perfect.
Hundred soldiers,
standing in line,
hundred soldiers,
standing in line,
hundred soldiers,
standing silent,
motionless.
Do I dare breathe,
or twitch an eye?
Standing silent,
never moving,
sitting straight,
back breaking,
wanting to move.
Hitler stands silent,
in front,
holding a box,
plain,
unwritten on,
minds wander,
imagination running free.
Snap to attention,
form a line,
collect your reward,
SS badges.
What we wanted,
what we earned.
Remember, obedience until death.
Old friends say,
it means Satan’s Servant.
I don’t care,
it’s what we wanted,
it’s what we earned,
it’s what we’ll serve.
Sometimes...
Sometimes...
Sometimes I love you,
sometimes I hate you.
Sometimes I run from you,
sometimes I could hug you.
You’re good to me and bad to me,
you make me smile,
you make me cry.
You’re there for me and then you disappear.
I just don’t know how I live with you.
But I guess I have no choice,
you are me.
Sometimes I love you,
sometimes I hate you.
Sometimes I run from you,
sometimes I could hug you.
You’re good to me and bad to me,
you make me smile,
you make me cry.
You’re there for me and then you disappear.
I just don’t know how I live with you.
But I guess I have no choice,
you are me.
Soft Blue Eyes...
Soft blue eyes,
sparkle and shine.
Blonde hair soft,
and beautiful.
Blinded by your beauty,
my mind enveloped by you,
I entrust my heart to you.
Don’t crush it,
leave it next to yours,
to beat strong,
and give you my love.
Blue eyes tell me,
what’s in your heart.
Soft blonde hair,
fingers running through,
fine and beautiful.
Blonde hair on my chest,
blue eyes stare at me,
I love you...
...eternally.
sparkle and shine.
Blonde hair soft,
and beautiful.
Blinded by your beauty,
my mind enveloped by you,
I entrust my heart to you.
Don’t crush it,
leave it next to yours,
to beat strong,
and give you my love.
Blue eyes tell me,
what’s in your heart.
Soft blonde hair,
fingers running through,
fine and beautiful.
Blonde hair on my chest,
blue eyes stare at me,
I love you...
...eternally.
Slaves...
...Slaves...
Slave to life,
slave to love,
slave to the rules,
slave to the anger,
burning inside.
Controlled by pain,
in your brain,
chained to a wall,
nothing to eat,
starved of life.
Slaves,
wanting life,
slaves,
striving for immortality.
Ten thousand years of pain,
trapped inside me,
burning inside,
killing me.
I want to live,
never die,
alarm clock sounding,
making me rise,
to the pain,
of being a slave.
Slaves,
striving for immortality,
I don’t wanna die,
why can’t I live on.
My soul has been,
torn from me,
I can’t think,
obeying commands.
Slaves,
striving for immortality,
“obedience until death”
is what we are told.
Do as we say,
or feel the whip.
Slaves,
wanting life,
Slaves,
striving for immortality.
Slave to life,
slave to love,
slave to the rules,
slave to the anger,
burning inside.
Controlled by pain,
in your brain,
chained to a wall,
nothing to eat,
starved of life.
Slaves,
wanting life,
slaves,
striving for immortality.
Ten thousand years of pain,
trapped inside me,
burning inside,
killing me.
I want to live,
never die,
alarm clock sounding,
making me rise,
to the pain,
of being a slave.
Slaves,
striving for immortality,
I don’t wanna die,
why can’t I live on.
My soul has been,
torn from me,
I can’t think,
obeying commands.
Slaves,
striving for immortality,
“obedience until death”
is what we are told.
Do as we say,
or feel the whip.
Slaves,
wanting life,
Slaves,
striving for immortality.
Should I move?
Should I move,
it’s so cold,
my feet are numb,
I can’t feel my fingers,
falling asleep.
Can’t!
Stay up or you’ll freeze,
others,
are they freezing?
Or already froze?
Must anyone face this,
or go through this horror,
eyes want to close off the world.
Can’t feel my legs,
I’ve got to move.
Walk away from the cold.
*I’ve got to walk away from rejection and the cold hearts I meet.*
1/16/89
Set me free...
Set me free,
let me be.
Can’t you see,
what you did to me?
Locked in a room,
all day long.
Sitting waiting for my release,
going through hell on a freight train.
Shocking my brain,
electricity racing through my veins,
lights go dim,
another victim to the shock treatment.
Living in hell,
I have no mind,
it’s fried to hell.
You’re mad if you think you can keep me,
locked in hell,
shocking my brain,
putting me through hell.
So set me free,
let me be,
can’t you see,
what you did to me?
let me be.
Can’t you see,
what you did to me?
Locked in a room,
all day long.
Sitting waiting for my release,
going through hell on a freight train.
Shocking my brain,
electricity racing through my veins,
lights go dim,
another victim to the shock treatment.
Living in hell,
I have no mind,
it’s fried to hell.
You’re mad if you think you can keep me,
locked in hell,
shocking my brain,
putting me through hell.
So set me free,
let me be,
can’t you see,
what you did to me?
God
Satan lives,
in my mind,
haunting me always,
wanting to fight,
help me let him out,
hold me tight,
please,
love me?
Stallion...
Stallion running
across the sky
I’m watching him run
to take me away
to the love we had.
Flowing mane
reminds me of the pain
of losing you
and the pain I caused you
of the clouds
I pass
and your hair.
Sparkling eyes
of clear blue waters
tell the story
our story
of fallen love.
Running fast
running high
I want to die
because of the troubles I caused you.
Run with me
run with the stallion named love with me...
...again...
across the sky
I’m watching him run
to take me away
to the love we had.
Flowing mane
reminds me of the pain
of losing you
and the pain I caused you
of the clouds
I pass
and your hair.
Sparkling eyes
of clear blue waters
tell the story
our story
of fallen love.
Running fast
running high
I want to die
because of the troubles I caused you.
Run with me
run with the stallion named love with me...
...again...
Relics
Relics of the past,
things from ancient times,
memories hidden in a closet,
behind a door that holds back history.
Thinking of the good times,
remembering the bad,
ancient things bothering me,
shouldn’t,
but they always do.
Remind me of lost love,
remind me of you.
The necklace you wore,
piled in the corner,
never to be worn again.
With a hundred more memories,
stored away,
used only as relics,
of memories of the past.
things from ancient times,
memories hidden in a closet,
behind a door that holds back history.
Thinking of the good times,
remembering the bad,
ancient things bothering me,
shouldn’t,
but they always do.
Remind me of lost love,
remind me of you.
The necklace you wore,
piled in the corner,
never to be worn again.
With a hundred more memories,
stored away,
used only as relics,
of memories of the past.
Rekindled...
Rekindled...
When I saw you again,
I smiled.
I felt the emotions of a lifetime,
come racing back.
Your eyes still sparkle,
I still love you.
You are the one that made me smile,
I thank you for that.
You made me smile once before,
and now again.
I still love you.
More then before.
I’ve changed,
and so have you,
love me once again.
When I saw you again,
I smiled.
I felt the emotions of a lifetime,
come racing back.
Your eyes still sparkle,
I still love you.
You are the one that made me smile,
I thank you for that.
You made me smile once before,
and now again.
I still love you.
More then before.
I’ve changed,
and so have you,
love me once again.
Powers of pain...
Powers of pain...
Powers of pain,
doctors of death,
attack me,
attack you,
both against them,
attacking us.
I will fight by you,
to save you even if I die,
I love you,
and I will fight til death,
for your life.
Fight for you,
fight for the warm eyes you have,
fight for the soft hair that I touch,
love me,
I love you.
Even through,
the powers of pain.
Powers of pain,
doctors of death,
attack me,
attack you,
both against them,
attacking us.
I will fight by you,
to save you even if I die,
I love you,
and I will fight til death,
for your life.
Fight for you,
fight for the warm eyes you have,
fight for the soft hair that I touch,
love me,
I love you.
Even through,
the powers of pain.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Passion storm...
Passion storm rages it’s fury when we are together,
unleashing it wrath upon us,
pleasure overcomes all barriers,
alone together,
forever together,
heroic combat plays out it’s game in our mouths.
Simple pleasures,
innocence has been lost,
love stronger then ever,
flows through our senses,
overflowing in our hearts.
Kisses ignite our feelings,
consume our very being,
hearts pound with passion,
exciting the pleasure,
that courses through our veins.
Hot steamy thoughts,
running rampant in our minds,
turns us on to the happiness,
we feel together.
We find as we go,
towards eternity in a storm of passion,
our desires overwhelm us,
like waves in a storm.
Our own passion storm rages,
in our hearts,
let it never end.
unleashing it wrath upon us,
pleasure overcomes all barriers,
alone together,
forever together,
heroic combat plays out it’s game in our mouths.
Simple pleasures,
innocence has been lost,
love stronger then ever,
flows through our senses,
overflowing in our hearts.
Kisses ignite our feelings,
consume our very being,
hearts pound with passion,
exciting the pleasure,
that courses through our veins.
Hot steamy thoughts,
running rampant in our minds,
turns us on to the happiness,
we feel together.
We find as we go,
towards eternity in a storm of passion,
our desires overwhelm us,
like waves in a storm.
Our own passion storm rages,
in our hearts,
let it never end.
Passion...
Passion...
Passion burns in my heart.
Ecstacy sits in waiting,
wanting your thighs between mine.
With all of this lust,
bursting inside.
Body bursts with ecstasy,
just from your touch.
Gently caressing my thighs.
Kissing me gently,
as I’m ready to explode.
Your love,
is what I need.
Your lust,
is what I need.
As passion burns...
Passion burns in my heart.
Ecstacy sits in waiting,
wanting your thighs between mine.
With all of this lust,
bursting inside.
Body bursts with ecstasy,
just from your touch.
Gently caressing my thighs.
Kissing me gently,
as I’m ready to explode.
Your love,
is what I need.
Your lust,
is what I need.
As passion burns...
Nothing is...
Nothing is worth more then this day
nothing is worth more then your kiss,
your love is worth a thousand days,
when we are together,
side by side,
it’s worth more then life itself.
A kiss,
a hug,
tugging on my heart,
your kisses filling me with love.
My true love calls me,
saying nothing is worth more then this day,
you are worth much more my sweet,
worth more then today,
more then any day.
Being with you,
holding on tight,
I love you with all my might,
nothing is worth more then this day,
except you,
You are worth much more...
nothing is worth more then your kiss,
your love is worth a thousand days,
when we are together,
side by side,
it’s worth more then life itself.
A kiss,
a hug,
tugging on my heart,
your kisses filling me with love.
My true love calls me,
saying nothing is worth more then this day,
you are worth much more my sweet,
worth more then today,
more then any day.
Being with you,
holding on tight,
I love you with all my might,
nothing is worth more then this day,
except you,
You are worth much more...
Nocturnal eyes...
Nocturnal eyes...
Nocturnal eyes,
beauty seen,
all through the night,
never hidden.
Pains of loss and gains,
fill the eyes,
form tears,
when told, yes,
or no.
Darkness of hate,
light of love,
fly through the night,
to find a mate.
See the hate,
find the love,
eyes of darkness,
see true love.
Emotions fly free,
in the dead of night,
running peacefully,
running free.
Light of love,
all around me,
fill my eyes with light,
fill my nocturnal eyes.
Nocturnal eyes,
beauty seen,
all through the night,
never hidden.
Pains of loss and gains,
fill the eyes,
form tears,
when told, yes,
or no.
Darkness of hate,
light of love,
fly through the night,
to find a mate.
See the hate,
find the love,
eyes of darkness,
see true love.
Emotions fly free,
in the dead of night,
running peacefully,
running free.
Light of love,
all around me,
fill my eyes with light,
fill my nocturnal eyes.
Night sky...
Night sky,
clouds floating by.
Dancing over trees,
climbing over mountains.
Unfolding over us.
Dark,
but yet a friend.
To let you rest,
with it’s comfort.
With it’s security.
Stars dance to and fro,
letting us know,
there is still hope,
and it will never let go.
clouds floating by.
Dancing over trees,
climbing over mountains.
Unfolding over us.
Dark,
but yet a friend.
To let you rest,
with it’s comfort.
With it’s security.
Stars dance to and fro,
letting us know,
there is still hope,
and it will never let go.
Lost puppy
Lost puppy looking for love
is what I am
Cold and scared without love
need the reassurance of a hug
I won’t be any trouble
I only want a little of your time
and I promise you’ll be in bed by nine.
I am a lost puppy
not knowing which way to turn
Help me find my way,
Love me?
Take me to a better place.
is what I am
Cold and scared without love
need the reassurance of a hug
I won’t be any trouble
I only want a little of your time
and I promise you’ll be in bed by nine.
I am a lost puppy
not knowing which way to turn
Help me find my way,
Love me?
Take me to a better place.
Love can't
Love can’t hurt as much as it does. Hard as a rock one time, yet so soft like a newborn babe. Pleasure is so pain filled, that pure pain is so pleasurable. You don’t know which is which anymore. What’s love? What’s pain? What’s life? What’s death? Caged fear, caged fantasies, escape the hidden world, into reality. Reality merged into fantasy, reality lost, or gained. Need in the eyes, pleasure in the brain, want in the heart. Senses tingling at a touch, exploding at full contact of the body. Lips match the fire in the eyes tasting each other hungrily, readily. Dead flowers, so fragile, so delicate, like love between two. Love can’t be as painful as they say, life so fragile yet lived with someone, with pain as a friend, a foe. One moment of pain, a life of pleasure, or just the opposite, depends on who you are. Fear, a constant companion, or a deadly enemy, scared with love, scared without it. Emotions running rapid, hidden, destroyed. Comfortably numb yet uneasy, love can’t hurt as it does, Can it?
Love has come
Love has come, and love has gone,
from this tired soul of mine.
Yet our love will always be.
If you leave once the love will be the same as before,
if you leave twice it won’t be as special.
Yet there will be a place in my heart for a third try,
the final try.
If you hurt my heart a third time,
never expect the love to be there when you come back.
My heart can only stand so much from one person.
Please don’t find out how far you can go.
I don’t want to be hurt anymore,
my soul has been punished enough.
Let it feel some pleasure instead,
my heart has been torn into many pieces,
please don’t hurt it,
love it,
and let it heal.
from this tired soul of mine.
Yet our love will always be.
If you leave once the love will be the same as before,
if you leave twice it won’t be as special.
Yet there will be a place in my heart for a third try,
the final try.
If you hurt my heart a third time,
never expect the love to be there when you come back.
My heart can only stand so much from one person.
Please don’t find out how far you can go.
I don’t want to be hurt anymore,
my soul has been punished enough.
Let it feel some pleasure instead,
my heart has been torn into many pieces,
please don’t hurt it,
love it,
and let it heal.
Love in our hearts
Love in our hearts, fire in our souls, passion on our minds, tender thoughts of you relieve the heartache and pain of a lifetime, sweet tender kisses excite the senses, warm hugs fill me with love, helps me through the day, time spent away attracts me nearer, dearer, to hold you close stops time, letting our love last forever, letting it grow stronger, happiness in our hearts, helps us get through this cruel life, sets us free, the love in our hearts sets fire to our souls, courses passion through our minds, warms our hearts like a big hug, and like a kiss, excites our senses, stopping time, growing us stronger and sets us free... free to love.
Love me
Love me,
hold me.
Touch me tenderly,
caress my wounds.
Heal them with your love.
Sing to me as only a nightingale can.
All the pain we’ve been put through,
will fade away with the end of the song.
hold me.
Touch me tenderly,
caress my wounds.
Heal them with your love.
Sing to me as only a nightingale can.
All the pain we’ve been put through,
will fade away with the end of the song.
Metal Pounding
Metal Pounding...
Cold steel lined up in a row,
my brain hears the steel ringing,
a thousand hammers start their pounding.
Anvils singing their song of pain,
it pulses deep in my brain.
I work all day on cold steel,
pounding metal rapes you of your life.
Metal Pounding,
hammers screaming,
going home to rape your wife,
living a life,
of metal pounding.
The ring of pain,
I wear on my finger,
tells me I am owned,
controlled in my life.
Pounding metal to survive.
Metal Pounding,
hammers screaming,
going home to rape your wife,
of metal pounding.
Cocaine easing the pain,
of the rolling train of cold steel.
Am I maim,
with a brain,
used to pound metal,
every day.
Take the steel and ram it up your ass!
Metal Pounding,
I feel no pain.
Metal Pounding,
hammers screaming,
going home to rape your wife,
living a life,
of metal pounding.
Cold steel lined up in a row,
my brain hears the steel ringing,
a thousand hammers start their pounding.
Anvils singing their song of pain,
it pulses deep in my brain.
I work all day on cold steel,
pounding metal rapes you of your life.
Metal Pounding,
hammers screaming,
going home to rape your wife,
living a life,
of metal pounding.
The ring of pain,
I wear on my finger,
tells me I am owned,
controlled in my life.
Pounding metal to survive.
Metal Pounding,
hammers screaming,
going home to rape your wife,
of metal pounding.
Cocaine easing the pain,
of the rolling train of cold steel.
Am I maim,
with a brain,
used to pound metal,
every day.
Take the steel and ram it up your ass!
Metal Pounding,
I feel no pain.
Metal Pounding,
hammers screaming,
going home to rape your wife,
living a life,
of metal pounding.
Metal Honor
Metal Honor,
cold steel,
hot lead,
bursting bombs,
dancing across,
always coming.
Shake of the ground,
full of mud,
covered in blood,
more fall.
Metal honor,
gashes from blades,
holes from bullets,
severed arms,
severed legs,
this is the honor.
The honor of metal,
fragment of war,
buried in the bodies of many,
buried in the minds of more.
This is the honor,
a soldier gets,
Metal Honor.
cold steel,
hot lead,
bursting bombs,
dancing across,
always coming.
Shake of the ground,
full of mud,
covered in blood,
more fall.
Metal honor,
gashes from blades,
holes from bullets,
severed arms,
severed legs,
this is the honor.
The honor of metal,
fragment of war,
buried in the bodies of many,
buried in the minds of more.
This is the honor,
a soldier gets,
Metal Honor.
Maiden from Hell
Maiden from Hell,
bitch of Satan,
lover of pain,
a leader of fallen,
horrid body,
mutated and scarred,
giver of pain,
to many of souls.
Skin of silk,
white creamy legs,
changed to make,
another kill,
steal another soul.
Captured mine,
look at my life,
painful and horrid,
love between us trapped,
love me again,
Maiden from Hell.
bitch of Satan,
lover of pain,
a leader of fallen,
horrid body,
mutated and scarred,
giver of pain,
to many of souls.
Skin of silk,
white creamy legs,
changed to make,
another kill,
steal another soul.
Captured mine,
look at my life,
painful and horrid,
love between us trapped,
love me again,
Maiden from Hell.
Losing you...
Losing you,
losing my mind,
I don’t know what to do,
I’m in a bind.
It’s a crazy time,
my heart is crushed to a size of a dime.
Am I losing you,
or my mind.
What can I do,
to stop from losing you.
My mind came unwound,
but I am bound,
to you.
Because it’s me,
losing you,
losing my mind.
I don’t want to die by my own hand,
but that’s how I feel,
and I can’t deal,
with me.
losing my mind,
I don’t know what to do,
I’m in a bind.
It’s a crazy time,
my heart is crushed to a size of a dime.
Am I losing you,
or my mind.
What can I do,
to stop from losing you.
My mind came unwound,
but I am bound,
to you.
Because it’s me,
losing you,
losing my mind.
I don’t want to die by my own hand,
but that’s how I feel,
and I can’t deal,
with me.
Monday, July 27, 2009
Little one...
Little one,
I made you smile,
I made you cry.
I played with your love like a dial,
but when I lost you I could’ve died.
But don’t worry,
be happy!
I’m sorry,
if I acted sappy.
I love you!
Lips as potent...
Lips as potent as a drug,
eyes as intoxicating as alcohol,
skin as soft as a baby,
sends shock waves through my mind,
explodes my senses.
Eyes of fire,
burn in my memory,
soft kisses beckon me
back into your arms.
Arms outstretched,
welcome me with,
with the warmth I yearn for.
Soft silky hair,
caressing my chest
makes me feel,
like I’m flying.
Wind beneath my feet,
holding your hand,
makes me feel whole,
wanting your every touch,
desiring to see your every move,
addicted to your love.
Needing your passion,
your scent driving me wild,
tasting your lips,
I fly high.
Drinking in your eyes,
sends my mind a sway,
shocked by your every touch,
nerve ends explode.
Your arms and soft kisses,
burns my mind,
with heated passion,
flying me higher then a kite could ever hope to go.
With your love,
in my heart,
I can change the world.
My drug is you,
my love is you,
desire is what,
your name should be.
Your love more powerful then death,
tender kisses draw me near to your body,
my want.
Your name my desire,
long kisses,
soft touches,
wanting you,
needing you,
loving you.
Addict me my drug,
for it is you,
I need.
eyes as intoxicating as alcohol,
skin as soft as a baby,
sends shock waves through my mind,
explodes my senses.
Eyes of fire,
burn in my memory,
soft kisses beckon me
back into your arms.
Arms outstretched,
welcome me with,
with the warmth I yearn for.
Soft silky hair,
caressing my chest
makes me feel,
like I’m flying.
Wind beneath my feet,
holding your hand,
makes me feel whole,
wanting your every touch,
desiring to see your every move,
addicted to your love.
Needing your passion,
your scent driving me wild,
tasting your lips,
I fly high.
Drinking in your eyes,
sends my mind a sway,
shocked by your every touch,
nerve ends explode.
Your arms and soft kisses,
burns my mind,
with heated passion,
flying me higher then a kite could ever hope to go.
With your love,
in my heart,
I can change the world.
My drug is you,
my love is you,
desire is what,
your name should be.
Your love more powerful then death,
tender kisses draw me near to your body,
my want.
Your name my desire,
long kisses,
soft touches,
wanting you,
needing you,
loving you.
Addict me my drug,
for it is you,
I need.
Life is the hardest struggle.
Life is the hardest struggle.
Tears fall to the ground.
Mother earth hears your call,
gently blowing your pains away.
Kissed by father time,
everything stands still,
the tears fade away,
just because they love you.
Don’t destroy them or their trust,
raping mother earth for your benefit is wrong.
Just let her be,
take the time father time gives you,
to enjoy life and the earth in all her beauty.
Because life is hard for us,
and them.
Tears fall to the ground.
Mother earth hears your call,
gently blowing your pains away.
Kissed by father time,
everything stands still,
the tears fade away,
just because they love you.
Don’t destroy them or their trust,
raping mother earth for your benefit is wrong.
Just let her be,
take the time father time gives you,
to enjoy life and the earth in all her beauty.
Because life is hard for us,
and them.
Life is...
Life is so short,
without a dream to chase,
life seems boring,
without a goal to try for,
life is lonely,
without someone to love,
even though life is;
Short without a dream to chase.
Boring without a goal to try for.
Lonely without someone to love.
Life seems so sweet at times
it doesn’t matter how short life is,
or boring and lonely life is.
As long as the sun comes up every morning,
and shines on my face,
I have no cares in the world.
without a dream to chase,
life seems boring,
without a goal to try for,
life is lonely,
without someone to love,
even though life is;
Short without a dream to chase.
Boring without a goal to try for.
Lonely without someone to love.
Life seems so sweet at times
it doesn’t matter how short life is,
or boring and lonely life is.
As long as the sun comes up every morning,
and shines on my face,
I have no cares in the world.
Life
Life is too short for anger,
Life is too long for worrying,
Life goes by faster with a little fear,
and a lot of love.
Arguments stop the fun and make others happy that you are not.
Music is all we have until the end,
Makes life easier to bear.
Makes death a little more easy.
Where would we be without love and music,
In our own personal hell.
Life is too short to have nothing to listen to or to love.
Life is too long for worrying,
Life goes by faster with a little fear,
and a lot of love.
Arguments stop the fun and make others happy that you are not.
Music is all we have until the end,
Makes life easier to bear.
Makes death a little more easy.
Where would we be without love and music,
In our own personal hell.
Life is too short to have nothing to listen to or to love.
Knock...
Knock.
Knock, knock,
nobodies home.
Let me hide,
from the pain.
Knock, knock,
let me in.
Pain all around,
can’t stand the torture,
of the hate of others,
now directed towards me.
I am just like you,
except I try harder to be liked,
but all I get,
is the hate.
Knock, knock,
please open up.
Let your kindness show.
I’m different,
but same inside as you.
Knock, knock,
knock, knock, knock, knock,
nobodies home...
Why me......
Knock, knock,
nobodies home.
Let me hide,
from the pain.
Knock, knock,
let me in.
Pain all around,
can’t stand the torture,
of the hate of others,
now directed towards me.
I am just like you,
except I try harder to be liked,
but all I get,
is the hate.
Knock, knock,
please open up.
Let your kindness show.
I’m different,
but same inside as you.
Knock, knock,
knock, knock, knock, knock,
nobodies home...
Why me......
Just like you
To loose someone,
is to loose a part of you.
You don’t know what to do,
you’re hurting to the bone,
your voice a different tone.
Your face has a frown,
don’t be down.
Smile and make the best of it,
don’t throw a fit.
That person still likes you.
Even tho your heart feels like a ton,
they don’t know what to do,
Just like you.
is to loose a part of you.
You don’t know what to do,
you’re hurting to the bone,
your voice a different tone.
Your face has a frown,
don’t be down.
Smile and make the best of it,
don’t throw a fit.
That person still likes you.
Even tho your heart feels like a ton,
they don’t know what to do,
Just like you.
Join the ranks...
Join the ranks,
of the broken hearted.
We are all friends here,
sufferers of broken hearts,
say they won’t love again,
they do.
Protect our hearts,
with walls and barriers,
hide the pain,
just the same.
Hearts shattered,
when told goodbye.
Hearts break,
when the love is gone.
Hearts needing love,
wonder when they’ll have it.
Had it once,
lost it completely,
never understood,
the last goodbye.
I join the ranks,
of the broken hearted,
sufferers of broken hearts
saying we won’t love again,
we do...
of the broken hearted.
We are all friends here,
sufferers of broken hearts,
say they won’t love again,
they do.
Protect our hearts,
with walls and barriers,
hide the pain,
just the same.
Hearts shattered,
when told goodbye.
Hearts break,
when the love is gone.
Hearts needing love,
wonder when they’ll have it.
Had it once,
lost it completely,
never understood,
the last goodbye.
I join the ranks,
of the broken hearted,
sufferers of broken hearts
saying we won’t love again,
we do...
Join me...
Join me in the fire,
with crystal eyes,
covering the fire,
that I face.
Burning out of control,
I can’t handle the flames,
I can remember the smile on your face,
and the glow in your eyes.
The fire hasn’t been drenched,
hidden behind crystal eyes,
join me in the fire,
That I face.
1/4/88
with crystal eyes,
covering the fire,
that I face.
Burning out of control,
I can’t handle the flames,
I can remember the smile on your face,
and the glow in your eyes.
The fire hasn’t been drenched,
hidden behind crystal eyes,
join me in the fire,
That I face.
1/4/88
Is this the end
Is this the end,
of our relationship,
of the good times we had,
and the bad times we shared?
Do I have to go through the pain,
of losing you forever,
of not seeing you more?
Don’t close the door of your heart,
leave it open,
for the light to shine on me,
for our love to grow more.
Is this the end,
Or just,
The beginning?
of our relationship,
of the good times we had,
and the bad times we shared?
Do I have to go through the pain,
of losing you forever,
of not seeing you more?
Don’t close the door of your heart,
leave it open,
for the light to shine on me,
for our love to grow more.
Is this the end,
Or just,
The beginning?
Fantasy land
Is this a fantasy land,
of dreams we dream,
on the stage of life,
a set behind the flats,
a different world,
behind the scenes.
Leekos shine,
fresnels gleam,
strips showing off their colors,
it’s show time,
behind the scenes.
Actors making final arrangements,
crew adjusting scenery,
running around,
break a leg! is said,
it is a fantasy land,
on the stage,
and behind the scenes.
of dreams we dream,
on the stage of life,
a set behind the flats,
a different world,
behind the scenes.
Leekos shine,
fresnels gleam,
strips showing off their colors,
it’s show time,
behind the scenes.
Actors making final arrangements,
crew adjusting scenery,
running around,
break a leg! is said,
it is a fantasy land,
on the stage,
and behind the scenes.
In my heart I feel pain
In my heart I feel pain,
rolling like a freight train.
The tears rolling down my face,
I’m in this rat race,
Til I die.
I will never break our tie.
Our love is strong and full,
love is a lot of push and pull.
When we’re near each other,
we are together,
no one to bother us,
we are alone.
I feel like I’m on a throne,
when you’re by my side.
It feels like high tide.
The pain is great,
let’s not debate.
In my heart I feel pain,
when we are on a train,
going our opposite ways.
I’ll count the days,
that in my heart,
I feel pain...
rolling like a freight train.
The tears rolling down my face,
I’m in this rat race,
Til I die.
I will never break our tie.
Our love is strong and full,
love is a lot of push and pull.
When we’re near each other,
we are together,
no one to bother us,
we are alone.
I feel like I’m on a throne,
when you’re by my side.
It feels like high tide.
The pain is great,
let’s not debate.
In my heart I feel pain,
when we are on a train,
going our opposite ways.
I’ll count the days,
that in my heart,
I feel pain...
I'm lost without you
I’m lost without you...
All I need is a little wish
to help be get you back
lost you in the wind
to fly away and grow
now I know
that I was wrong
could have held on strong
if I had my wish
I’d have you in my arms
I don’t need any lucky charms
all I need is a little wish
to help me get you back
lost you in the wind
to fly away and grow
I wish on a different star
wishing you never left my arms
I know now what I missed when you left
I need your loving arms around me
you are the only one I care for
all I need is a little wish
to help me get you back
lost you in the wind
to fly away and grow.
...I can only grow with you.
All I need is a little wish
to help be get you back
lost you in the wind
to fly away and grow
now I know
that I was wrong
could have held on strong
if I had my wish
I’d have you in my arms
I don’t need any lucky charms
all I need is a little wish
to help me get you back
lost you in the wind
to fly away and grow
I wish on a different star
wishing you never left my arms
I know now what I missed when you left
I need your loving arms around me
you are the only one I care for
all I need is a little wish
to help me get you back
lost you in the wind
to fly away and grow.
...I can only grow with you.
I'm afraid
I’m afraid.
I’m scared of losing you.
I’ve paid my dues,
I really don’t want to loose you.
I love your sweet kiss,
I love your gentle caress.
Why do I feel rejection?
I’m shaking inside with emotions,
we never talk,
we are never alone.
When we are alone,
away from each other,
all I can remember is when we are together.
You lead me on,
then you drop me like a bomb.
We don’t need sex to keep our relationship going on.
All we need is each other,
and time to be alone with one another.
Not to be with your sister or brother.
All we need is to be together,
and time to be alone.
I’m scared of losing you.
I’ve paid my dues,
I really don’t want to loose you.
I love your sweet kiss,
I love your gentle caress.
Why do I feel rejection?
I’m shaking inside with emotions,
we never talk,
we are never alone.
When we are alone,
away from each other,
all I can remember is when we are together.
You lead me on,
then you drop me like a bomb.
We don’t need sex to keep our relationship going on.
All we need is each other,
and time to be alone with one another.
Not to be with your sister or brother.
All we need is to be together,
and time to be alone.
I want to break free
I want to break free,
to live in peace,
to have love,
to live in harmony.
Free to live,
as I see fit.
To live if I want to,
or die if I want to.
Ah to be free to live and love.
No hate or pain.
To love someone forever,
or to find love,
unbound love.
Peace in my heart,
hate in my blood,
death on my mind,
set me free from this turmoil.
Taunt me no more,
play with my mind never again.
Leave me in peace,
set my future free.
Forgetting the past,
a past of hate and heartbreak.
Love me,
so I can be free,
Forever.
to live in peace,
to have love,
to live in harmony.
Free to live,
as I see fit.
To live if I want to,
or die if I want to.
Ah to be free to live and love.
No hate or pain.
To love someone forever,
or to find love,
unbound love.
Peace in my heart,
hate in my blood,
death on my mind,
set me free from this turmoil.
Taunt me no more,
play with my mind never again.
Leave me in peace,
set my future free.
Forgetting the past,
a past of hate and heartbreak.
Love me,
so I can be free,
Forever.
I didn’t mean to make you cry,
I didn’t mean to make you cry,
I feel like I want to die.
When the tear fell from your eye,
as I said goodbye.
My heart fell,
you’re my southern bell,
I could not tell,
how it would make you feel.
I feel like a heel,
I want to make an appeal,
I love you.
What can I do,
to get you back in my arms.
I love you til the end of time,
to keep you like a shiny dime.
I wish I could put a stitch in time,
so I can have you as mine.
What can I do,
to get you back into my arms...
I feel like I want to die.
When the tear fell from your eye,
as I said goodbye.
My heart fell,
you’re my southern bell,
I could not tell,
how it would make you feel.
I feel like a heel,
I want to make an appeal,
I love you.
What can I do,
to get you back in my arms.
I love you til the end of time,
to keep you like a shiny dime.
I wish I could put a stitch in time,
so I can have you as mine.
What can I do,
to get you back into my arms...
I didn’t mean...
I didn’t mean to hurt you,
I didn’t mean to cheat on you,
I love you,
with all my heart.
Please don’t deprive me,
of the love I once had
with you,
please.
I need you more now,
I needed you then,
don’t leave me,
without your love,
without your warmth.
I swear,
I’ll never hurt you,
or cause you pain...
...ever again.
I didn’t mean to cheat on you,
I love you,
with all my heart.
Please don’t deprive me,
of the love I once had
with you,
please.
I need you more now,
I needed you then,
don’t leave me,
without your love,
without your warmth.
I swear,
I’ll never hurt you,
or cause you pain...
...ever again.
Hush puppy eyes
Hush puppy eyes
make me forget the pain
I once had.
Am I but an illusion
to make you happy
then you omit me
when not needed?
I am not an illusion
but someone to love
lead around by your love
by the need for your eyes
for you.
Maybe this love will last until...
...eternity.
make me forget the pain
I once had.
Am I but an illusion
to make you happy
then you omit me
when not needed?
I am not an illusion
but someone to love
lead around by your love
by the need for your eyes
for you.
Maybe this love will last until...
...eternity.
Hoping
Hoping for freedom,
looking for love,
soft clouds above,
hide another kingdom.
Where there is not colored people,
where there is not white people,
they are all the same,
and no one has a name.
It’s hello friend,
hello buddy,
no one grows old,
no one is different,
all the same.
Get me out of this hell hole,
into a place better then this world...
...please.
looking for love,
soft clouds above,
hide another kingdom.
Where there is not colored people,
where there is not white people,
they are all the same,
and no one has a name.
It’s hello friend,
hello buddy,
no one grows old,
no one is different,
all the same.
Get me out of this hell hole,
into a place better then this world...
...please.
hold me close...
Hold me close,
hold me tight,
all through the night,
cold and brisk,
without your love.
I need you close,
I need you near,
loving me true,
loving me forever.
Hold me...
Hold me softly,
kiss me with care,
my wounds are not yet healed,
the gashes run deep still,
my reasons to love,
still running out.
So gentle are you,
healing my wounds,
with your love.
Can you heal the pain,
the pain of a broken heart?
Say that you will love me,
say that the love I feel,
is the same as you do.
Together to heal,
the wounds of others,
together to be there,
in times of need or not.
Together,
not alone,
but to love,
as lovers,
and friends do,
Together.
kiss me with care,
my wounds are not yet healed,
the gashes run deep still,
my reasons to love,
still running out.
So gentle are you,
healing my wounds,
with your love.
Can you heal the pain,
the pain of a broken heart?
Say that you will love me,
say that the love I feel,
is the same as you do.
Together to heal,
the wounds of others,
together to be there,
in times of need or not.
Together,
not alone,
but to love,
as lovers,
and friends do,
Together.
Hold...
Hold me close,
touch me softly,
kiss my lips,
with your tenderness.
Hold you in my arms forever,
love you in my hold,
holding me in yours.
Wait til eternity,
for your love,
never falling out,
of your hold.
touch me softly,
kiss my lips,
with your tenderness.
Hold you in my arms forever,
love you in my hold,
holding me in yours.
Wait til eternity,
for your love,
never falling out,
of your hold.
Mirrors...
Hiding behind mirrors,
looking from behind,
a wall of glass.
Finding out who are friends,
weeding out enemies,
from glass mirrors.
Mystery man hidden,
never showing himself,
afraid they might see,
the pain hidden in his eyes,
and the hidden flames...
...behind mirrors.
looking from behind,
a wall of glass.
Finding out who are friends,
weeding out enemies,
from glass mirrors.
Mystery man hidden,
never showing himself,
afraid they might see,
the pain hidden in his eyes,
and the hidden flames...
...behind mirrors.
Hidden smiles...
Hidden smiles,
covered up by a frown,
few show through ever,
less are given,
to friends,
or people you love.
Can’t show smiles,
afraid of emotions,
wanting them dearly,
covered up by a frown.
Smile,
wipe away the frown,
don’t hide the emotions,
show love with a smile,
show happiness with a smile,
show anything,
besides hidden smiles.
covered up by a frown,
few show through ever,
less are given,
to friends,
or people you love.
Can’t show smiles,
afraid of emotions,
wanting them dearly,
covered up by a frown.
Smile,
wipe away the frown,
don’t hide the emotions,
show love with a smile,
show happiness with a smile,
show anything,
besides hidden smiles.
Help!
Help!
Negative force control me
people messing with my mind
why do people want total control
why do they want to control
everything.
Blood pulses through my brain
rushing my thinking
drowning my thoughts with hate
getting raw power
from hatred.
Eyes filled with rage
mouth spitting out flames
fight off the enemy
resist all.
I can’t think
I don’t know what I’m saying
pain in my brain
killing me...
HELP!
Negative force control me
people messing with my mind
why do people want total control
why do they want to control
everything.
Blood pulses through my brain
rushing my thinking
drowning my thoughts with hate
getting raw power
from hatred.
Eyes filled with rage
mouth spitting out flames
fight off the enemy
resist all.
I can’t think
I don’t know what I’m saying
pain in my brain
killing me...
HELP!
Free your mind...
Free your mind,
and the rest will follow,
the struggle of remembering will be defeated.
Life will have better meaning for you,
opening yourself to a higher realm of awareness.
A new you will appear,
better and more powerful in the mind.
Beautiful inside and out,
truly peaceful and calm.
This freedom of mind and body,
to be the perfect you,
free your mind,
and the rest will follow.
and the rest will follow,
the struggle of remembering will be defeated.
Life will have better meaning for you,
opening yourself to a higher realm of awareness.
A new you will appear,
better and more powerful in the mind.
Beautiful inside and out,
truly peaceful and calm.
This freedom of mind and body,
to be the perfect you,
free your mind,
and the rest will follow.
Fake world
Fake world,
unreal,
is the perfect world,
in my dreams.
Flying ships,
sailing above,
rockets on rails,
whizzing by,
faster then my dreams.
Elevator rugby,
laser tennis,
are some sports,
in a fake world.
When I dream,
it’s another world,
fake and unreal,
it is to me...
... a perfect world.
unreal,
is the perfect world,
in my dreams.
Flying ships,
sailing above,
rockets on rails,
whizzing by,
faster then my dreams.
Elevator rugby,
laser tennis,
are some sports,
in a fake world.
When I dream,
it’s another world,
fake and unreal,
it is to me...
... a perfect world.
Fake
Fake,
unreal,
phony,
is what love is,
is what love will always be.
Real,
true,
is the pain,
that people cause.
To me,
to you,
some people only want love,
never give anything but
PAIN.
unreal,
phony,
is what love is,
is what love will always be.
Real,
true,
is the pain,
that people cause.
To me,
to you,
some people only want love,
never give anything but
PAIN.
Eyes sparkle
Eyes sparkle like morning dew,
glisten in the sun,
saying I love you,
is all I can do.
Flowing hair,
sparkles in the moonlight,
silently falling on my chest,
with love you lay on my shoulder,
to rest.
Hand and hand,
walking through flowers,
with no thoughts of hate,
only love.
Why me,
why not us,
together this time...
...forever.
glisten in the sun,
saying I love you,
is all I can do.
Flowing hair,
sparkles in the moonlight,
silently falling on my chest,
with love you lay on my shoulder,
to rest.
Hand and hand,
walking through flowers,
with no thoughts of hate,
only love.
Why me,
why not us,
together this time...
...forever.
Eyes of glass...
Eyes of glass,
heart of crystal,
cracked windows,
shattered lives.
Strong but fragile,
clear but misty,
fading past,
fogging the road,
blocking the path.
Not letting me past,
holding me there,
with glass eyes,
And a heart turned to stone.
heart of crystal,
cracked windows,
shattered lives.
Strong but fragile,
clear but misty,
fading past,
fogging the road,
blocking the path.
Not letting me past,
holding me there,
with glass eyes,
And a heart turned to stone.
Everywhere
Everywhere,
not a sound,
nothing,
never to be seen.
A single tear,
falls from my eye,
onto you chest,
glistens in the light,
then runs away,
down your chest.
Everywhere,
there is romance and beauty,
but none to remember,
like that single tear upon your chest.
not a sound,
nothing,
never to be seen.
A single tear,
falls from my eye,
onto you chest,
glistens in the light,
then runs away,
down your chest.
Everywhere,
there is romance and beauty,
but none to remember,
like that single tear upon your chest.
Embraced...
Embraced by your love,
immortal passion yearns for quenching.
Kindred spirits on a quest for happiness,
for each other,
for a haven for the love,
the passion.
Masquerade unneeded, unwanted.
Love is a feeling that comes in many ways,
the scent of a woman,
the taste of her sweet lips,
the heat from his breath,
the scent of his skin,
you can hear her heart pounding,
you can see the gleam in her eyes when you say, “I love you.”
and you can touch her silky smooth skin.
How in this world,
when we stimulate our senses with false pleasures,
can we loose sight of the pleasure that one person can bring you,
and make you feel as if you just let your mind have the real pleasure it wants,
it needs,
The love of one, the one true pleasure.
immortal passion yearns for quenching.
Kindred spirits on a quest for happiness,
for each other,
for a haven for the love,
the passion.
Masquerade unneeded, unwanted.
Love is a feeling that comes in many ways,
the scent of a woman,
the taste of her sweet lips,
the heat from his breath,
the scent of his skin,
you can hear her heart pounding,
you can see the gleam in her eyes when you say, “I love you.”
and you can touch her silky smooth skin.
How in this world,
when we stimulate our senses with false pleasures,
can we loose sight of the pleasure that one person can bring you,
and make you feel as if you just let your mind have the real pleasure it wants,
it needs,
The love of one, the one true pleasure.
Driving...
Driving me crazy,
heading for insanity,
full steam ahead,
no time to enjoy,
no time to reconsider.
Pushing it aside,
for success,
no time to think,
it’s rush, rush, rush.
Driving for knowledge,
driving for financial gain,
no time to enjoy,
the thing shown to me.
Everyone wanting,
always taking,
no giving,
having no time to enjoy,
while it’s driving me crazy,
heading for insanity,
Without it.
heading for insanity,
full steam ahead,
no time to enjoy,
no time to reconsider.
Pushing it aside,
for success,
no time to think,
it’s rush, rush, rush.
Driving for knowledge,
driving for financial gain,
no time to enjoy,
the thing shown to me.
Everyone wanting,
always taking,
no giving,
having no time to enjoy,
while it’s driving me crazy,
heading for insanity,
Without it.
Dream...
Dream...
How can I sleep,
With a love so deep,
Burning in my soul,
Taking its' toll...
Night turns to day,
In dreams we play,
Reality lost,
Reality found,
As I lay here on the ground...
Twist and turn,
My soul burns,
Laying in my bed,
Thoughts racing through my head...
How can I sleep,
With a love so deep,
Burning in my soul,
Taking its' toll...
How can I sleep,
With a love so deep,
Burning in my soul,
Taking its' toll...
Night turns to day,
In dreams we play,
Reality lost,
Reality found,
As I lay here on the ground...
Twist and turn,
My soul burns,
Laying in my bed,
Thoughts racing through my head...
How can I sleep,
With a love so deep,
Burning in my soul,
Taking its' toll...
Don’t leave me,
Don’t leave me,
don’t ever let go.
Stay with me forever,
never leave for another.
My heart broke,
as you walked away from me.
Leaving me,
never coming back.
Wanting my love,
taking it always.
Only you never understood,
why I loved you.
Don’t ever leave me,
all I need is you.
You make my heart strong,
with love that has never been seen,
in me.
They tore you away from me,
saying that you shouldn’t see me anymore.
I’m controlled by a master,
held from you,
controlled from somewhere.
Trying to prepare,
for the final conflict,
need your love,
so I have a reason to fight,
to stay strong in my battle,
to win over the master,
and have you rule,
by my side...
...forever...
So please...
...come back to me.
don’t ever let go.
Stay with me forever,
never leave for another.
My heart broke,
as you walked away from me.
Leaving me,
never coming back.
Wanting my love,
taking it always.
Only you never understood,
why I loved you.
Don’t ever leave me,
all I need is you.
You make my heart strong,
with love that has never been seen,
in me.
They tore you away from me,
saying that you shouldn’t see me anymore.
I’m controlled by a master,
held from you,
controlled from somewhere.
Trying to prepare,
for the final conflict,
need your love,
so I have a reason to fight,
to stay strong in my battle,
to win over the master,
and have you rule,
by my side...
...forever...
So please...
...come back to me.
Don't confuse me...
Don’t confuse me,
I’m fragile,
my mind is full.
Brain pounding,
bells in my ears sounding,
tell me I’m still alive.
Hold me please,
don’t be a tease.
My heart is breaking,
beneath my feet,
the earth quaking,
Or is it me,
Shaking?
Tell me you need me,
tell me you love me,
I want to know,
what you are thinking,
tell me before I blow my mind!
I’m fragile,
my mind is full.
Brain pounding,
bells in my ears sounding,
tell me I’m still alive.
Hold me please,
don’t be a tease.
My heart is breaking,
beneath my feet,
the earth quaking,
Or is it me,
Shaking?
Tell me you need me,
tell me you love me,
I want to know,
what you are thinking,
tell me before I blow my mind!
Differences...
Separate worlds,
different lives,
no one wants the other.
Thought to be different,
less.
Fight for freedom,
to be equal,
one in the same.
Hate spread out,
love taken,
let us end this war,
and be one world,
with no differences...
different lives,
no one wants the other.
Thought to be different,
less.
Fight for freedom,
to be equal,
one in the same.
Hate spread out,
love taken,
let us end this war,
and be one world,
with no differences...
Difference...
Difference in my life
is what you made
changing me
helped to find
a love I never knew.
Mind trapped
by thoughts of you
no one else
mind wanders
to visions of your face
and the smile
that you have.
Life wracked with pain
you have repaired some
giving me strength
to live once again.
Hold me forever
daring the future
being together with me
forever.
is what you made
changing me
helped to find
a love I never knew.
Mind trapped
by thoughts of you
no one else
mind wanders
to visions of your face
and the smile
that you have.
Life wracked with pain
you have repaired some
giving me strength
to live once again.
Hold me forever
daring the future
being together with me
forever.
Death for me,
Death for me,
will be and end,
to the problems,
that will never end.
I turn a bend,
to find a way,
to control the past,
so it won’t bother me as much.
To end it would be,
a way to end the problems,
that won’t die,
to end the screaming pain,
inside my head,
forever.
My ears ring,
with the scream,
my eyes water,
with the pain in my heart,
my mind.
So as I said,
death for me,
would be an end,
of problems that can’t be solved,
no matter what I do.
will be and end,
to the problems,
that will never end.
I turn a bend,
to find a way,
to control the past,
so it won’t bother me as much.
To end it would be,
a way to end the problems,
that won’t die,
to end the screaming pain,
inside my head,
forever.
My ears ring,
with the scream,
my eyes water,
with the pain in my heart,
my mind.
So as I said,
death for me,
would be an end,
of problems that can’t be solved,
no matter what I do.
Death by your own hand,
Death by your own hand,
ending the suffering and the pain,
but yet you are creating more,
silent screaming never heard,
shout it out,
don’t shut it in,
uncontrollable pain ripping through your mind,
as you consider,
death by your own hand.
Set me free,
let me be.
Can’t you see,
what you did to me?
You held me close, tightly,
we made love nightly.
All we wanted we had,
then you called me a cad!
You’re mad!
If you think,
you can make me mad or sad!
You stink!
I loved you so,
now you love someone named Bobbi-Jo.
We had something great,
and you mashed my face into a grate.
So set me free,
let me be.
Can’t you see,
what you did to me?
ending the suffering and the pain,
but yet you are creating more,
silent screaming never heard,
shout it out,
don’t shut it in,
uncontrollable pain ripping through your mind,
as you consider,
death by your own hand.
Set me free,
let me be.
Can’t you see,
what you did to me?
You held me close, tightly,
we made love nightly.
All we wanted we had,
then you called me a cad!
You’re mad!
If you think,
you can make me mad or sad!
You stink!
I loved you so,
now you love someone named Bobbi-Jo.
We had something great,
and you mashed my face into a grate.
So set me free,
let me be.
Can’t you see,
what you did to me?
Deadly hands
Deadly hands,
caressing me softly,
causing me pain,
by pushing me away.
Killing me softly,
with your touch,
the touch of those,
deadly hands.
caressing me softly,
causing me pain,
by pushing me away.
Killing me softly,
with your touch,
the touch of those,
deadly hands.
Darkness.
Darkness rules the land,
skeleton soldiers rise from the grave,
armor rusty and worn,
flesh and clothing decayed.
Foul stench of death,
the wind carries the screams,
of long ago,
releasing it to our ears.
Horrid shrieks and groans,
clanging steel grows louder
the ringing of the metal,
echoing in our heads.
Control of the land,
is wanted.
Win the war,
control the land.
Armor shiny and new,
dented and cut
swords dripping with blood.
Prove another victory,
prove more death.
Skeletons of the fallen men,
rise up and join the ranks,
with the ranks of skeletons.
Dark, unforgiving, hating all,
darkness will fill the land with bodies,
and flood the world with blood.
Foul stench of death,
when darkness rules the land.
skeleton soldiers rise from the grave,
armor rusty and worn,
flesh and clothing decayed.
Foul stench of death,
the wind carries the screams,
of long ago,
releasing it to our ears.
Horrid shrieks and groans,
clanging steel grows louder
the ringing of the metal,
echoing in our heads.
Control of the land,
is wanted.
Win the war,
control the land.
Armor shiny and new,
dented and cut
swords dripping with blood.
Prove another victory,
prove more death.
Skeletons of the fallen men,
rise up and join the ranks,
with the ranks of skeletons.
Dark, unforgiving, hating all,
darkness will fill the land with bodies,
and flood the world with blood.
Foul stench of death,
when darkness rules the land.
Confused...
Confused,
unable to think.
Can’t understand,
the love shown to you.
Troubled,
searching for an answer.
Of who to love,
about the love shown to you.
I love you and always will.
Confused?
So am I.
Torn between you,
and others.
But only wanting you,
needing you so.
Wanting,
your touch,
on me forever.
Wanting your true love.
Need,
answers to your questions.
I also do.
Maybe together we won’t be...
...so confused.
unable to think.
Can’t understand,
the love shown to you.
Troubled,
searching for an answer.
Of who to love,
about the love shown to you.
I love you and always will.
Confused?
So am I.
Torn between you,
and others.
But only wanting you,
needing you so.
Wanting,
your touch,
on me forever.
Wanting your true love.
Need,
answers to your questions.
I also do.
Maybe together we won’t be...
...so confused.
Complete beauty
Complete beauty,
love in your heart,
caring person,
blinding beauty.
Need to know,
if the eyes I see,
are true,
or false.
Have to touch,
your soft hair,
have it touch,
upon my chest.
See your tears,
leave your eyes,
have my shoulder,
whenever it’s needed.
You have complete beauty,
deep in your heart,
glowing in your eyes,
share it with me?
love in your heart,
caring person,
blinding beauty.
Need to know,
if the eyes I see,
are true,
or false.
Have to touch,
your soft hair,
have it touch,
upon my chest.
See your tears,
leave your eyes,
have my shoulder,
whenever it’s needed.
You have complete beauty,
deep in your heart,
glowing in your eyes,
share it with me?
Change a little...
Change a little bit at a time,
for me,
for you,
for the love we have,
together.
Change slowly as will I,
ever so carefully change,
don’t loose the tenderness,
that we share.
Change a little bit at a time.
for me,
for you,
for the love we have,
together.
Change slowly as will I,
ever so carefully change,
don’t loose the tenderness,
that we share.
Change a little bit at a time.
Caress me...
Caress me,
hold me tight,
love me forever,
and I’ll let you in.
Starry nights,
under the stars,
peaceful and quiet,
dancing shadows.
Trees acting like people,
moving about,
covering us with their knowledge,
solitude.
Protecting us from others,
that cause us pain,
giving us a bed of leaf's,
of knowledge and love.
Streaks of light shine through,
so we can see,
our future,
our past.
Moonlight giving us a warm glow,
baking us in it’s light.
Silently watching over us,
kissing us with it’s light.
It’s love.
Breaking is what...
Breaking is what you do best.
Putting hearts,
through a painful test.
When you find a love,
you say you love another,
someone new,
or your ex-.
Why hurt,
someone that loved you?
Putting him through pain,
of losing you.
You didn’t think,
what it would do to him.
I thought you two,
would last for eternity,
I guess I was wrong about that...
...and you.
Putting hearts,
through a painful test.
When you find a love,
you say you love another,
someone new,
or your ex-.
Why hurt,
someone that loved you?
Putting him through pain,
of losing you.
You didn’t think,
what it would do to him.
I thought you two,
would last for eternity,
I guess I was wrong about that...
...and you.
Bombs burst...
Bombs burst,
blood spills,
bodies fall left and right.
Run to the trenches,
run for your lives.
Incoming round,
where will it hit...
Where am I?
I can’t see,
I’m blind,
I can’t hear,
I can’t feel anything.
My leg is gone,
nothing left of me.
Help me!
Can’t talk,
can’t scream.
All I hear is the bomb bursting,
somewhere,
then silence.
Help me!
Help me!
I’m someone,
not something.
Someone who needs love.
Someone wanting to die.
I am a human being,
not a piece of meat!
Help me!
blood spills,
bodies fall left and right.
Run to the trenches,
run for your lives.
Incoming round,
where will it hit...
Where am I?
I can’t see,
I’m blind,
I can’t hear,
I can’t feel anything.
My leg is gone,
nothing left of me.
Help me!
Can’t talk,
can’t scream.
All I hear is the bomb bursting,
somewhere,
then silence.
Help me!
Help me!
I’m someone,
not something.
Someone who needs love.
Someone wanting to die.
I am a human being,
not a piece of meat!
Help me!
A rose is lain..
A rose is lain, on a newly dug grave.
It wilts in the frost and turns to death.
A bud forms,
a new flower blooms,
taken to a child,
yet unborn.
And we are reminded,
of what is lost,
yet found.
It wilts in the frost and turns to death.
A bud forms,
a new flower blooms,
taken to a child,
yet unborn.
And we are reminded,
of what is lost,
yet found.
A question...
Touch me.
Why?
I need a little love.
Why?
Because I have gotten none from anyone in a long time.
Why?
They never gave me any.
Why?
For they never found out how to give, only take.
Why?
Because they are greedy.
Oh!
Why?
I need a little love.
Why?
Because I have gotten none from anyone in a long time.
Why?
They never gave me any.
Why?
For they never found out how to give, only take.
Why?
Because they are greedy.
Oh!
Saturday, July 18, 2009
A Bedtime Tale
Oh how the howls echo through the wind,
The call of truth in us all,
Hear the calls of the damned,
Listen to the gathering growing,
Out in the forest,
Out by the river,
Hear their little footsteps,
Feel their breath,
Oh how the howls send shivers,
Their calls spreading fear to those that hear,
Hear the calls of the damned,
Listen to the calls of the beasts,
In the dark of night,
In the light of day,
Hear their cries,
Feel their rage,
Oh how the howls carry on the wind,
Their piercing sounds a warning to us all,
Hear their voices and run away scared,
Listen to the howls of the children,
For they know no fear....
The call of truth in us all,
Hear the calls of the damned,
Listen to the gathering growing,
Out in the forest,
Out by the river,
Hear their little footsteps,
Feel their breath,
Oh how the howls send shivers,
Their calls spreading fear to those that hear,
Hear the calls of the damned,
Listen to the calls of the beasts,
In the dark of night,
In the light of day,
Hear their cries,
Feel their rage,
Oh how the howls carry on the wind,
Their piercing sounds a warning to us all,
Hear their voices and run away scared,
Listen to the howls of the children,
For they know no fear....
Birthday Gift... (naughty)
Birthday Gift...
She could feel his muscled arms wrap slowly around her from behind. His gentleness always was a surprise to her when he touched her. She knew what he wanted, he had been hinting about it for months before his birthday. Scared, she timidly decided she would give him his birthday wish. It was the first time he had ever asked her to do anything like this before. His hard muscles wrapped tenderly but tightly on her silken flesh, making her mind race wildly, the feelings turning her body into a trembling jumble of emotions. The nipples on her perky breasts ached from their hardness, never had she felt like this before around him. Hot breath rippled around the back of her neck as he kissed it softly. Her heart raced faster, this was really happening, she never thought it would, but the tiny shocks her skin felt as his fingertips navigated across her every curve told her the truth.
Innocent moans escaped her lips as she felt his hot cock slip between her legs from behind. It's length and girth rubbed lightly at her quickly moistening womanhood. Her mind raced and swirled with the new sensations, her damp center was being treated too. She looked down to her vagina, she could see the head and part of his shaft as it rocked softly between her legs. Her eyes widened at the sight, this was the real thing, she really was going to loose her virginity today. His calloused hands softly ran down her shoulders and across her arms, his large fingers entwining with hers as he guided her towards the bed.
His rough hands and fingers delicately danced up her calves and onto her inner thighs. She could not help it, her legs seemed to have a mind of their own as they spread open slowly with his every caress. She could see his fully erect cock twitching softly as his hands slid slowly up and down her thighs. She could feel herself beginning to yearn for his fingers touch. Her hands grasping at her breasts, massaging them slowly. His fingers brushed lovingly across her engorged lips. Her mind exploded with new feelings and desires all at once. The gentle roughness of his rough palms causing her hips to rise slightly in anticipation of his fingers exploring her inner folds as he tenderly rubbed her virgin pubic hairs. They had only started to appear more pronounced in the past four months after her fifteenth birthday. She had gotten her first period at fourteen, and from that point, her yearnings to make love had grown almost out of control.
She shivered vigorously as she felt his digits glide between her wet lips and into the delicate folds between. Moist and longing she moaned innocently, the grin on his face made her return the same grin. Feelings raced like fire through her mind as his finger slid slowly into her tight, virgin love canal, she bit her lower lip hard as he slowly pressed it deeper inside. Soft passionate yelps of pain and pleasure escaped her lips as he worked his finger in and out of her ever dampening vagina. She watched as his other hand methodically stroked his huge penis, she knew what was coming soon. Her mind scared, her wet sex yearning.
The bed creaked a little as he inched himself closer to her. Her heart felt as if it would burst out of her chest as he leaned forward over her. His hot bulging gliding itself over her wetness, his delicate licks and kisses on her neck drove her wild with pleasure. She whispered softly into his ear, "Happy birthday..." her words stopped short as she felt the head of his cock press against her outer lips of her pussy. He was ready, was she really ready, her mind torn between yes or no. She moaned sweetly as he whispered in her ear, "I will enjoy my present sooo much. I promise to be gentle my sweet present." Her eyes widened as she felt his tip slide its' way past her lips and towards her love canal extremely slowly. She could feel his restraint on himself as he entered her virgin hole. Fingers dug into his flesh as he pressed slowly inwards, this was it, there was no turning back now she thought. She could feel his thick, hot meat slowly spreading her inner walls wider and wider as he inched himself ever deeper inside her body. She had heard the stories of it being painful the first time, but his delicate way and experience made it only feel a little discomforting.
Her mind raced as she felt it press against something inside her, then a "popping" feeling flooded her mind. "You are no longer a virgin my sweet." he whispered with a loving smile. She had finally done it, she had lost her virginity, to the man she truly loved beyond any other. She bit her bottom lip harder as he slowly pushed deeper into her. Its' every ridge and vein rubbed against her tight inner folds, making her moan loudly. With a delicate rhythm, he slowly worked his huge shaft fully into her, the feeling was so amazing. To feel him, inside her body, was her first fantasy, and it was happening right now.
He was fully inside her now, her hands slowly caressing his warm flesh. Slowly he began to pull back and thrust forward. She could feel every inch slipping in and out of her wetness, driving her wild quickly. Her back arched off the bed a little more with every slow thrust, new sensations coursed through her body and mind. A few more thrusts and something came over her, she screamed out in orgasmic pleasure, the look upon his face as her eyes slowly opened was one of satisfaction. "Enjoy my sweet, soon I will make a woman out of you. " he whispered into her ear, "Would you like that?"
"Yess.." rushed past her lips, she could not stop it. What had she agreed to, she didn't care as he continued to make love to her.
His hot throbbing organ diving deep inside her vagina. For over two hours he made love to her, two more orgasms raced through
her body before he whispered to her, "Are you ready to know what it feels like to be a woman?" She nodded slowly with an orgasmic, "Yess..." His pace slowed to almost a stop, he looked deep into her eyes as his deep voice whispered once more, "I'm going to cum inside you like I do with other women. Would you like that?"
Her eyes widened at his words, she knew what he meant. Her eyes searched his, he could see her fear and uncertainty, "Don't worry, it's the last step in fully becoming a woman." he smiled as he whispered.
"But what about..." his finger touched her lips
softly,
"Becoming pregnant? Nothing would make me happier then for you to carry my baby." he replied. She looked up at him,she was scared, nervous, unsure, but she wanted to feel everything. "I want to be a real woman." she whispered back timidly.
She could feel him throbbing inside her , his pace slowly increasing as he worked his thick cock in and out of her for a few moments. She looked deep into his eyes as he looked down into hers, "Take my seed and become a woman, let it grow for us both!" he cried out as he thrust his hips forward, pressing them hard against hers. She could feel his entire length as it
swelled and throbbed inside her, then it happened, she felt his warm cum pulse inside her pussy. The exotic feeling of it made her press her hips harder against his as she orgasmed. She could feel it gushing out of him and deep into her, splashing against
her cervix. There was no doubt in her mind anymore, she was a woman now. His pleasure filled groans echoed in her ears as his hips stopped their grinding slowly, his hips pumping his cock erratically deep inside her. She could feel his heart pounding
hard against her breasts, her own pounding from the pleasure and uncertainty. Tender kisses on her neck and shoulders, timid hands trembling as she caressed his glistening flesh, her mind racing from what had just happened.
"You are the best birthday gift ever my sweet. " he whispered between kisses, "I will never forget this birthday." A tender smile crossed her lips, nothing would ever be the same for her again, life was new to her.
She could feel his muscled arms wrap slowly around her from behind. His gentleness always was a surprise to her when he touched her. She knew what he wanted, he had been hinting about it for months before his birthday. Scared, she timidly decided she would give him his birthday wish. It was the first time he had ever asked her to do anything like this before. His hard muscles wrapped tenderly but tightly on her silken flesh, making her mind race wildly, the feelings turning her body into a trembling jumble of emotions. The nipples on her perky breasts ached from their hardness, never had she felt like this before around him. Hot breath rippled around the back of her neck as he kissed it softly. Her heart raced faster, this was really happening, she never thought it would, but the tiny shocks her skin felt as his fingertips navigated across her every curve told her the truth.
Innocent moans escaped her lips as she felt his hot cock slip between her legs from behind. It's length and girth rubbed lightly at her quickly moistening womanhood. Her mind raced and swirled with the new sensations, her damp center was being treated too. She looked down to her vagina, she could see the head and part of his shaft as it rocked softly between her legs. Her eyes widened at the sight, this was the real thing, she really was going to loose her virginity today. His calloused hands softly ran down her shoulders and across her arms, his large fingers entwining with hers as he guided her towards the bed.
His rough hands and fingers delicately danced up her calves and onto her inner thighs. She could not help it, her legs seemed to have a mind of their own as they spread open slowly with his every caress. She could see his fully erect cock twitching softly as his hands slid slowly up and down her thighs. She could feel herself beginning to yearn for his fingers touch. Her hands grasping at her breasts, massaging them slowly. His fingers brushed lovingly across her engorged lips. Her mind exploded with new feelings and desires all at once. The gentle roughness of his rough palms causing her hips to rise slightly in anticipation of his fingers exploring her inner folds as he tenderly rubbed her virgin pubic hairs. They had only started to appear more pronounced in the past four months after her fifteenth birthday. She had gotten her first period at fourteen, and from that point, her yearnings to make love had grown almost out of control.
She shivered vigorously as she felt his digits glide between her wet lips and into the delicate folds between. Moist and longing she moaned innocently, the grin on his face made her return the same grin. Feelings raced like fire through her mind as his finger slid slowly into her tight, virgin love canal, she bit her lower lip hard as he slowly pressed it deeper inside. Soft passionate yelps of pain and pleasure escaped her lips as he worked his finger in and out of her ever dampening vagina. She watched as his other hand methodically stroked his huge penis, she knew what was coming soon. Her mind scared, her wet sex yearning.
The bed creaked a little as he inched himself closer to her. Her heart felt as if it would burst out of her chest as he leaned forward over her. His hot bulging gliding itself over her wetness, his delicate licks and kisses on her neck drove her wild with pleasure. She whispered softly into his ear, "Happy birthday..." her words stopped short as she felt the head of his cock press against her outer lips of her pussy. He was ready, was she really ready, her mind torn between yes or no. She moaned sweetly as he whispered in her ear, "I will enjoy my present sooo much. I promise to be gentle my sweet present." Her eyes widened as she felt his tip slide its' way past her lips and towards her love canal extremely slowly. She could feel his restraint on himself as he entered her virgin hole. Fingers dug into his flesh as he pressed slowly inwards, this was it, there was no turning back now she thought. She could feel his thick, hot meat slowly spreading her inner walls wider and wider as he inched himself ever deeper inside her body. She had heard the stories of it being painful the first time, but his delicate way and experience made it only feel a little discomforting.
Her mind raced as she felt it press against something inside her, then a "popping" feeling flooded her mind. "You are no longer a virgin my sweet." he whispered with a loving smile. She had finally done it, she had lost her virginity, to the man she truly loved beyond any other. She bit her bottom lip harder as he slowly pushed deeper into her. Its' every ridge and vein rubbed against her tight inner folds, making her moan loudly. With a delicate rhythm, he slowly worked his huge shaft fully into her, the feeling was so amazing. To feel him, inside her body, was her first fantasy, and it was happening right now.
He was fully inside her now, her hands slowly caressing his warm flesh. Slowly he began to pull back and thrust forward. She could feel every inch slipping in and out of her wetness, driving her wild quickly. Her back arched off the bed a little more with every slow thrust, new sensations coursed through her body and mind. A few more thrusts and something came over her, she screamed out in orgasmic pleasure, the look upon his face as her eyes slowly opened was one of satisfaction. "Enjoy my sweet, soon I will make a woman out of you. " he whispered into her ear, "Would you like that?"
"Yess.." rushed past her lips, she could not stop it. What had she agreed to, she didn't care as he continued to make love to her.
His hot throbbing organ diving deep inside her vagina. For over two hours he made love to her, two more orgasms raced through
her body before he whispered to her, "Are you ready to know what it feels like to be a woman?" She nodded slowly with an orgasmic, "Yess..." His pace slowed to almost a stop, he looked deep into her eyes as his deep voice whispered once more, "I'm going to cum inside you like I do with other women. Would you like that?"
Her eyes widened at his words, she knew what he meant. Her eyes searched his, he could see her fear and uncertainty, "Don't worry, it's the last step in fully becoming a woman." he smiled as he whispered.
"But what about..." his finger touched her lips
softly,
"Becoming pregnant? Nothing would make me happier then for you to carry my baby." he replied. She looked up at him,she was scared, nervous, unsure, but she wanted to feel everything. "I want to be a real woman." she whispered back timidly.
She could feel him throbbing inside her , his pace slowly increasing as he worked his thick cock in and out of her for a few moments. She looked deep into his eyes as he looked down into hers, "Take my seed and become a woman, let it grow for us both!" he cried out as he thrust his hips forward, pressing them hard against hers. She could feel his entire length as it
swelled and throbbed inside her, then it happened, she felt his warm cum pulse inside her pussy. The exotic feeling of it made her press her hips harder against his as she orgasmed. She could feel it gushing out of him and deep into her, splashing against
her cervix. There was no doubt in her mind anymore, she was a woman now. His pleasure filled groans echoed in her ears as his hips stopped their grinding slowly, his hips pumping his cock erratically deep inside her. She could feel his heart pounding
hard against her breasts, her own pounding from the pleasure and uncertainty. Tender kisses on her neck and shoulders, timid hands trembling as she caressed his glistening flesh, her mind racing from what had just happened.
"You are the best birthday gift ever my sweet. " he whispered between kisses, "I will never forget this birthday." A tender smile crossed her lips, nothing would ever be the same for her again, life was new to her.
...Free...
Free your mind,
and the rest will follow,
the struggle of remembering will be defeated.
Life will have better meaning for you,
opening yourself to a higher realm of awareness.
A new you will appear,
better and more powerful in the mind.
Beautiful inside and out,
truly peaceful and calm.
This freedom of mind and body,
to be the perfect you,
free your mind,
and the rest will follow.
and the rest will follow,
the struggle of remembering will be defeated.
Life will have better meaning for you,
opening yourself to a higher realm of awareness.
A new you will appear,
better and more powerful in the mind.
Beautiful inside and out,
truly peaceful and calm.
This freedom of mind and body,
to be the perfect you,
free your mind,
and the rest will follow.
Can't you see?...
Set me free,
let me be.
Can’t you see,
what you did to me?
You held me close, tightly,
we made love nightly.
All we wanted we had,
then you called me a cad!
You’re mad!
If you think,
you can make me mad or sad!
You stink!
I loved you so,
now you love someone named Bobbi-Jo.
We had something great,
and you mashed my face into a grate.
So set me free,
let me be.
Can’t you see,
what you did to me?
let me be.
Can’t you see,
what you did to me?
You held me close, tightly,
we made love nightly.
All we wanted we had,
then you called me a cad!
You’re mad!
If you think,
you can make me mad or sad!
You stink!
I loved you so,
now you love someone named Bobbi-Jo.
We had something great,
and you mashed my face into a grate.
So set me free,
let me be.
Can’t you see,
what you did to me?
puppy...
Lost puppy looking for love
is what I am
Cold and scared without love
need the reassurance of a hug
I won’t be any trouble
I only want a little of your time
and I promise you’ll be in bed by nine.
I am a lost puppy
not knowing which way to turn
Help me find my way,
Love me?
Take me to a better place
is what I am
Cold and scared without love
need the reassurance of a hug
I won’t be any trouble
I only want a little of your time
and I promise you’ll be in bed by nine.
I am a lost puppy
not knowing which way to turn
Help me find my way,
Love me?
Take me to a better place
...tired eyes...
Unicorns glide through the shadows
Pegasus runs through the sky
It’s time to dream of the fantasy,
fill yourself with the magic of nowhere, everywhere.
Elven laughter sings
Fairies whisper to the wind
Leprechauns polish the sun
Wizards speak enchanted words with the trees
Dragons laugh with the rain
An enchanted forest buzzing with life,
lost yet not forgotten,
another Ogre slips into unconsciousness.
It’s time to dream of the fantasy,
fill yourself with the magic of nowhere, everywhere.
Fantasy land not far away,
just behind tired eyes.
Pegasus runs through the sky
It’s time to dream of the fantasy,
fill yourself with the magic of nowhere, everywhere.
Elven laughter sings
Fairies whisper to the wind
Leprechauns polish the sun
Wizards speak enchanted words with the trees
Dragons laugh with the rain
An enchanted forest buzzing with life,
lost yet not forgotten,
another Ogre slips into unconsciousness.
It’s time to dream of the fantasy,
fill yourself with the magic of nowhere, everywhere.
Fantasy land not far away,
just behind tired eyes.
opening...
Hard as nails, cold as steel,
is what you are to me.
Sweet little girl, soft to the touch,
mean and ruthless inside.
Hiding your anger in a delicate shell,
a wolf in sheep’s clothing.
Fire burns in your eyes, consuming your soul.
Soft as silk, your words cut like a knife,
sting like a whip.
Gentle kisses, sweet to the taste, deadlier than poison.
Painful glances race from your eyes,
straight through the heart, destroyed,
waiting for the fire to burn out.
Inflicted pain, you do so well, names the hunger stronger.
Warm embraces from a cold heart, attract me nearer,
holding you dearer, easy prey to you.
Lost in a fantasy, chasing a dream, finding out who you really are.
Hard core lover, a delicate charade, a cunning act.
Hard as nails, cold as steel,
is what you are to me.
Seeing past your facade, you keep it well,
let me in, to the warmth below.
is what you are to me.
Sweet little girl, soft to the touch,
mean and ruthless inside.
Hiding your anger in a delicate shell,
a wolf in sheep’s clothing.
Fire burns in your eyes, consuming your soul.
Soft as silk, your words cut like a knife,
sting like a whip.
Gentle kisses, sweet to the taste, deadlier than poison.
Painful glances race from your eyes,
straight through the heart, destroyed,
waiting for the fire to burn out.
Inflicted pain, you do so well, names the hunger stronger.
Warm embraces from a cold heart, attract me nearer,
holding you dearer, easy prey to you.
Lost in a fantasy, chasing a dream, finding out who you really are.
Hard core lover, a delicate charade, a cunning act.
Hard as nails, cold as steel,
is what you are to me.
Seeing past your facade, you keep it well,
let me in, to the warmth below.
Dedicated...
Dedicated men and women
Served their country well
Faced and fought the enemy
Risked their lives for freedom
For us or someone else
Fought with honor
Died with pride and respect
Flags fly at half mast for the fallen
We will never forget
The dedicated men and women
Who died for freedom
But live on in our hearts.
Served their country well
Faced and fought the enemy
Risked their lives for freedom
For us or someone else
Fought with honor
Died with pride and respect
Flags fly at half mast for the fallen
We will never forget
The dedicated men and women
Who died for freedom
But live on in our hearts.
...Tears...
Tender tears
fall to the earth
run down your face
the smile on your face brightens the day
in a different way
drops on your body
never letting go
just like me
rain in your eyes
you brush away
now the tender tears
that fall from the sky
Fall with sadness...
For me.
fall to the earth
run down your face
the smile on your face brightens the day
in a different way
drops on your body
never letting go
just like me
rain in your eyes
you brush away
now the tender tears
that fall from the sky
Fall with sadness...
For me.
...rekindled...
When I saw you again,
I smiled.
I felt the emotions of a lifetime,
come racing back.
Your eyes still sparkle,
I still love you.
You are the one that made me smile,
I thank you for that.
You made me smile once before,
and now again.
I still love you.
More then before.
I’ve changed,
and so have you,
love me once again.
I smiled.
I felt the emotions of a lifetime,
come racing back.
Your eyes still sparkle,
I still love you.
You are the one that made me smile,
I thank you for that.
You made me smile once before,
and now again.
I still love you.
More then before.
I’ve changed,
and so have you,
love me once again.
Poet's Eye
Poet’s Eye
Seeing each day with a newborn soul
Appreciating things others don’t see
Thinking in pictures and words instead of
number and formulas
To feel the thunder in your blood,
to smell all the scents in the air.
Sense the wind in your hair
Using words to shape it all -
Awed by the scene
A bond of the soul with everything
that lives and feels
A widening of perspective
through the Poet’s Eyes.
To Venisia Gonzalez,
I hope you make it to the stars.
The struggle of life...
I crawl...
My arms give way.
I stand...
My knees buckle.
I run...
My feet stumble.
And yet,
I reach for the stars,
I catch them,
and they’re mine.
Seeing each day with a newborn soul
Appreciating things others don’t see
Thinking in pictures and words instead of
number and formulas
To feel the thunder in your blood,
to smell all the scents in the air.
Sense the wind in your hair
Using words to shape it all -
Awed by the scene
A bond of the soul with everything
that lives and feels
A widening of perspective
through the Poet’s Eyes.
To Venisia Gonzalez,
I hope you make it to the stars.
The struggle of life...
I crawl...
My arms give way.
I stand...
My knees buckle.
I run...
My feet stumble.
And yet,
I reach for the stars,
I catch them,
and they’re mine.
...A perfet world...
Fake world,
unreal,
is the perfect world,
in my dreams.
Flying ships,
sailing above,
rockets on rails,
whizzing by,
faster then my dreams.
Elevator rugby,
laser tennis,
are some sports,
in a fake world.
When I dream,
it’s another world,
fake and unreal,
it is to me...
... a perfect world.
unreal,
is the perfect world,
in my dreams.
Flying ships,
sailing above,
rockets on rails,
whizzing by,
faster then my dreams.
Elevator rugby,
laser tennis,
are some sports,
in a fake world.
When I dream,
it’s another world,
fake and unreal,
it is to me...
... a perfect world.
...Taking a chance...
...Taking a chance...
They say if you stop looking for love,
You’ll find it.
I guess that’s how we met.
Two strangers searching for others,
Bump in each other.
Sparks!
Fireworks!
There was none.
Just two people taking a chance.
Well, soon you wedged your way into this,
Little niche of mine.
Or, I wedged my way into yours,
and, slowly we fell into lust.
Passion!
Ecstasy!
There was none,
Just two people taking a chance,
then I guess it happened one day,
I loved you,
Or you loved me.
You became my best friend and treasure,
I let you in.
Friendship,
Understanding.
This is true love,
When the risks pay off.
They say if you stop looking for love,
You’ll find it.
I guess that’s how we met.
Two strangers searching for others,
Bump in each other.
Sparks!
Fireworks!
There was none.
Just two people taking a chance.
Well, soon you wedged your way into this,
Little niche of mine.
Or, I wedged my way into yours,
and, slowly we fell into lust.
Passion!
Ecstasy!
There was none,
Just two people taking a chance,
then I guess it happened one day,
I loved you,
Or you loved me.
You became my best friend and treasure,
I let you in.
Friendship,
Understanding.
This is true love,
When the risks pay off.
“.”
“.”
Small
unchangeable
be careful or you’ll loose it
lost without it
dead dreams
without a little of it.
Strange how we have so much
but can loose it so easily
so small it is
but we cling to it dearly
holding onto it
waiting for a dream or something.
Small
but strong
unchangeable
but used to heal the wounds of heartache and pain
only wishing that the pain wasn’t there
only you know what it means,
“.”
Small
unchangeable
be careful or you’ll loose it
lost without it
dead dreams
without a little of it.
Strange how we have so much
but can loose it so easily
so small it is
but we cling to it dearly
holding onto it
waiting for a dream or something.
Small
but strong
unchangeable
but used to heal the wounds of heartache and pain
only wishing that the pain wasn’t there
only you know what it means,
“.”
Love can't hurt...
Love can’t hurt as much as it does. Hard as a rock one time, yet so soft like a newborn babe. Pleasure is so pain filled, that pure pain is so pleasurable. You don’t know which is which anymore. What’s love? What’s pain? What’s life? What’s death? Caged fear, caged fantasies, escape the hidden world, into reality. Reality merged into fantasy, reality lost, or gained. Need in the eyes, pleasure in the brain, want in the heart. Senses tingling at a touch, exploding at full contact of the body. Lips match the fire in the eyes tasting each other hungrily, readily. Dead flowers, so fragile, so delicate, like love between two. Love can’t be as painful as they say, life so fragile yet lived with someone, with pain as a friend, a foe. One moment of pain, a life of pleasure, or just the opposite, depends on who you are. Fear, a constant companion, or a deadly enemy, scared with love, scared without it. Emotions running rapid, hidden, destroyed. Comfortably numb yet uneasy, love can’t hurt as it does, Can it?
Life is so short...
Life is so short,
without a dream to chase,
life seems boring,
without a goal to try for,
life is lonely,
without someone to love,
even though life is;
Short without a dream to chase.
Boring without a goal to try for.
Lonely without someone to love.
Life seems so sweet at times
it doesn’t matter how short life is,
or boring and lonely life is.
As long as the sun comes up every morning,
and shines on my face,
I have no cares in the world.
two little poems...
Free your mind,
and the rest will follow,
the struggle of remembering will be defeated.
Life will have better meaning for you,
opening yourself to a higher realm of awareness.
A new you will appear,
better and more powerful in the mind.
Beautiful inside and out,
truly peaceful and calm.
This freedom of mind and body,
to be the perfect you,
free your mind,
and the rest will follow.
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Death by your own hand,
ending the suffering and the pain,
but yet you are creating more,
silent screaming never heard,
shout it out,
don’t shut it in,
uncontrollable pain ripping through your mind,
as you consider,
death by your own hand.
and the rest will follow,
the struggle of remembering will be defeated.
Life will have better meaning for you,
opening yourself to a higher realm of awareness.
A new you will appear,
better and more powerful in the mind.
Beautiful inside and out,
truly peaceful and calm.
This freedom of mind and body,
to be the perfect you,
free your mind,
and the rest will follow.
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Death by your own hand,
ending the suffering and the pain,
but yet you are creating more,
silent screaming never heard,
shout it out,
don’t shut it in,
uncontrollable pain ripping through your mind,
as you consider,
death by your own hand.
...Free...
Set me free,
let me be.
Can’t you see,
what you did to me?
You held me close, tightly,
we made love nightly.
All we wanted we had,
then you called me a cad!
You’re mad!
If you think,
you can make me mad or sad!
You stink!
I loved you so,
now you love someone named Bobbi-Jo.
We had something great,
and you mashed my face into a grate.
So set me free,
let me be.
Can’t you see,
what you did to me?
let me be.
Can’t you see,
what you did to me?
You held me close, tightly,
we made love nightly.
All we wanted we had,
then you called me a cad!
You’re mad!
If you think,
you can make me mad or sad!
You stink!
I loved you so,
now you love someone named Bobbi-Jo.
We had something great,
and you mashed my face into a grate.
So set me free,
let me be.
Can’t you see,
what you did to me?
Little fuck puppy...
Little fuck puppy,
hanging out,
waiting to fuck you up and down and all around.
You played with my mind once to often,
now you’ve unleashed a part of me no one has seen.
Urge to kill pounds in my mind.
Your little fuck puppy has grown up,
no longer to please you,
just myself,
no one else.
No more hanging around waiting just for you,
I’ve got my own life to live,
but it’s not with you,
someone else.
You’re going to have to learn to live,
without your little puppy to fuck,
no longer submitting to your every sexual whim.
I’m breaking free,
no more waiting with starry eyes,
no more hanging around to fuck you up and down and all around,
just myself,
no one else,
no more playing with my mind.
I have grown up,
your little fuck puppy hanging out,
waiting to fuck you,
is finally breaking free.
So go fuck yourself for a change.
*written by myself and my friend Lisa Devencenci*
hanging out,
waiting to fuck you up and down and all around.
You played with my mind once to often,
now you’ve unleashed a part of me no one has seen.
Urge to kill pounds in my mind.
Your little fuck puppy has grown up,
no longer to please you,
just myself,
no one else.
No more hanging around waiting just for you,
I’ve got my own life to live,
but it’s not with you,
someone else.
You’re going to have to learn to live,
without your little puppy to fuck,
no longer submitting to your every sexual whim.
I’m breaking free,
no more waiting with starry eyes,
no more hanging around to fuck you up and down and all around,
just myself,
no one else,
no more playing with my mind.
I have grown up,
your little fuck puppy hanging out,
waiting to fuck you,
is finally breaking free.
So go fuck yourself for a change.
*written by myself and my friend Lisa Devencenci*
...Arguements End...
Tender love is the goal,
smooth out all the bumps,
making a happy relation,
between the two in love.
Just three words said with feeling,
can help smooth it out,
“I am sorry” is one,
the other, “I love you.”
Can calm the savage beast in us all.
Save the relationship for each other,
not for anyone or anything.
Just never hurt loved one,
just talk it out,
because tender love is the goal.
smooth out all the bumps,
making a happy relation,
between the two in love.
Just three words said with feeling,
can help smooth it out,
“I am sorry” is one,
the other, “I love you.”
Can calm the savage beast in us all.
Save the relationship for each other,
not for anyone or anything.
Just never hurt loved one,
just talk it out,
because tender love is the goal.
*untitled*
Love has come and love has gone,
from this tired soul of mine.
Yet our love will always be.
If you leave once the love will be the same as before,
if you leave twice it won’t be as special.
Yet there will be a place in my heart for a third try,
the final try.
If you hurt my heart a third time,
never expect the love to be there when you come back.
My heart can only stand so much from one person.
Please don’t find out how far you can go.
I don’t want to be hurt anymore,
my soul has been punished enough.
Let it feel some pleasure instead,
my heart has been torn into many pieces,
please don’t hurt it,
love it,
and let it heal.
from this tired soul of mine.
Yet our love will always be.
If you leave once the love will be the same as before,
if you leave twice it won’t be as special.
Yet there will be a place in my heart for a third try,
the final try.
If you hurt my heart a third time,
never expect the love to be there when you come back.
My heart can only stand so much from one person.
Please don’t find out how far you can go.
I don’t want to be hurt anymore,
my soul has been punished enough.
Let it feel some pleasure instead,
my heart has been torn into many pieces,
please don’t hurt it,
love it,
and let it heal.
The prettiest flower & two short poems
The prettiest flower...
Why can’t I have the prettiest flower,
so tender and soft,
so gentle and mild,
yet ever so wild.
Could that wild flower ever love me?
Could it be mine?
I am blind,
yet I can see the beauty,
and not a flaw in it’s petals.
The prettiest flower, come with me,
so I can feel love in my heart once again,
and be with the prettiest flower,
I have ever seen,
Forever...
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Love in our hearts, fire in our souls, passion on our minds, tender thoughts of you relieve the heartache and pain of a lifetime, sweet tender kisses excite the senses, warm hugs fill me with love, helps me through the day, time spent away attracts me nearer, dearer, to hold you close stops time, letting our love last forever, letting it grow stronger, happiness in our hearts, helps us get through this cruel life, sets us free, the love in our hearts sets fire to our souls, courses passion through our minds, warms our hearts like a big hug, and like a kiss, excites our senses, stopping time, growing us stronger and sets us free... free to love.
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The love of a lifetime is only inches away,
yet it seems like miles before our lips meet,
because my love is so strong,
I can’t stand not having in my arms,
pressed against me forever...
Why can’t I have the prettiest flower,
so tender and soft,
so gentle and mild,
yet ever so wild.
Could that wild flower ever love me?
Could it be mine?
I am blind,
yet I can see the beauty,
and not a flaw in it’s petals.
The prettiest flower, come with me,
so I can feel love in my heart once again,
and be with the prettiest flower,
I have ever seen,
Forever...
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Love in our hearts, fire in our souls, passion on our minds, tender thoughts of you relieve the heartache and pain of a lifetime, sweet tender kisses excite the senses, warm hugs fill me with love, helps me through the day, time spent away attracts me nearer, dearer, to hold you close stops time, letting our love last forever, letting it grow stronger, happiness in our hearts, helps us get through this cruel life, sets us free, the love in our hearts sets fire to our souls, courses passion through our minds, warms our hearts like a big hug, and like a kiss, excites our senses, stopping time, growing us stronger and sets us free... free to love.
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The love of a lifetime is only inches away,
yet it seems like miles before our lips meet,
because my love is so strong,
I can’t stand not having in my arms,
pressed against me forever...
...Pleasure...
Embraced by your love,
immortal passion yearns for quenching.
Kindred spirits on a quest for happiness,
for each other,
for a haven for the love,
the passion.
Masquerade unneeded, unwanted.
Love is a feeling that comes in many ways,
the scent of a woman,
the taste of her sweet lips,
the heat from his breath,
the scent of his skin,
you can hear her heart pounding,
you can see the gleam in her eyes when you say, “I love you.”
and you can touch her silky smooth skin.
How in this world,
when we stimulate our senses with false pleasures,
can we loose sight of the pleasure that one person can bring you,
and make you feel as if you just let your mind have the real pleasure it wants,
it needs,
The love of one, the one true pleasure.
immortal passion yearns for quenching.
Kindred spirits on a quest for happiness,
for each other,
for a haven for the love,
the passion.
Masquerade unneeded, unwanted.
Love is a feeling that comes in many ways,
the scent of a woman,
the taste of her sweet lips,
the heat from his breath,
the scent of his skin,
you can hear her heart pounding,
you can see the gleam in her eyes when you say, “I love you.”
and you can touch her silky smooth skin.
How in this world,
when we stimulate our senses with false pleasures,
can we loose sight of the pleasure that one person can bring you,
and make you feel as if you just let your mind have the real pleasure it wants,
it needs,
The love of one, the one true pleasure.
...Crawling...
Crawling my way through life,
I try so hard to love,
I try so hard to please the one I love,
even as I try,
love throws a curve
and the love is gone,
never to return,
they never knew how much I really loved them.
My knees are cut and bruised,
my hands are rough and calloused,
as I’ve carried the burden of being alive,
of loves lost and found,
they never found out about my love.
Trying so hard to stand proud in life and love,
but when I get close to standing,
I get knocked down to my knees,
crawling.
So if I must crawl,
I will,
but love is so hard to find,
true love is even harder.
They come and they go,
but they never seem to stay long,
always wanting someone who stands,
not one that tries and crawls,
they want one already standing,
that has everything,
no waiting for anything.
So I am on my hands and knees,
crawling my way through life,
trying to stand,
but they always leave for someone,
“better” then me.
So I ‘m knocked down,
to crawling,
so I crawl on my hands and knees,
carrying the burden of lost love,
and being alive in a standing world.
I try so hard to love,
I try so hard to please the one I love,
even as I try,
love throws a curve
and the love is gone,
never to return,
they never knew how much I really loved them.
My knees are cut and bruised,
my hands are rough and calloused,
as I’ve carried the burden of being alive,
of loves lost and found,
they never found out about my love.
Trying so hard to stand proud in life and love,
but when I get close to standing,
I get knocked down to my knees,
crawling.
So if I must crawl,
I will,
but love is so hard to find,
true love is even harder.
They come and they go,
but they never seem to stay long,
always wanting someone who stands,
not one that tries and crawls,
they want one already standing,
that has everything,
no waiting for anything.
So I am on my hands and knees,
crawling my way through life,
trying to stand,
but they always leave for someone,
“better” then me.
So I ‘m knocked down,
to crawling,
so I crawl on my hands and knees,
carrying the burden of lost love,
and being alive in a standing world.
Sunday, July 5, 2009
A poem
Cold moonless nights,
My eyes yearn for just a glimmer,
a sight seldom seen,
a word rarely spoken,
To dream of the future,
to look back into the past,
You will be forever in my eyes and dreams.
Days come and go,
night consuming them hungrily,
I sit and wonder,
I sit and listen,
Listening for a heartbeat,
for a tender sigh,
You will be forever in my eyes and dreams.
Life slowly fading into the past,
pain lost over it's passage,
a new beginning to some,
and ending for others.
You will be forever in my eyes and dreams.
*inspired by Kal ShadowHand*
My eyes yearn for just a glimmer,
a sight seldom seen,
a word rarely spoken,
To dream of the future,
to look back into the past,
You will be forever in my eyes and dreams.
Days come and go,
night consuming them hungrily,
I sit and wonder,
I sit and listen,
Listening for a heartbeat,
for a tender sigh,
You will be forever in my eyes and dreams.
Life slowly fading into the past,
pain lost over it's passage,
a new beginning to some,
and ending for others.
You will be forever in my eyes and dreams.
*inspired by Kal ShadowHand*
Thursday, July 2, 2009
His Mistress´ Voice
She had been restless for a while, he couldn´t have but noticed when standing guard at the Smugglers´ Gate, he knew the signs and the tempting pull of Her voice. Soon somewhere a sailor, be it a lonely fisherman or a sea captain, would decide to face Her waves, despite his colleagues warnings, ignoring the little voices in his head or simply because he had a family to feed.
He had felt nervous then, close enough to hear Her voice, yet just out of reach.
But how could he ever really be out of reach? Her touch reached everywhere, the springs and rivers, the kitchen sink, his cup of tea...even into his very blood. Faintly, easy to resist, it still was there, like a whispered promise across a room or a whiny nag from next door, however Her mood struck Her.
She hadn´t given up, probably never would, just being there, waiting, biding Her time. But some days Her call would be more insistent and She would reach out to Her children, Her mates. Days like these...
He pressed closely against the Southern City Wall, his fingers curled into a piece of cloth that carried her flowery scent, his anchor into his new being.
Her call had pulled him here, he couldn´t have stayed away; close enough to hear Her voice yet far enough to resist... hopefully.
His eyes watched Her ever restless body to the east, even here, far away from where She took Her tithe, chose Her playthings, companions and loves the signs of her fury were unmistakeable. The storm would rage out there, shredding sails and breaking masts, more to the south, it seemed. A good sign, most likely no-one he knew would find his way to Her this night.
And suddenly, with a satisfied moan carried upon the winds, it was over. His hands clutched the tattered remains of a brightly coloured skirt to his face, filling his head with peace and the strength to move away, away from Her who he once called his love to the one that was his Love now, his anchor, the founding stone of his new self.
*As written by Stewan Seagull about the Sea and T'lara. To be added to The Stories of the "Dark" Woman*
He had felt nervous then, close enough to hear Her voice, yet just out of reach.
But how could he ever really be out of reach? Her touch reached everywhere, the springs and rivers, the kitchen sink, his cup of tea...even into his very blood. Faintly, easy to resist, it still was there, like a whispered promise across a room or a whiny nag from next door, however Her mood struck Her.
She hadn´t given up, probably never would, just being there, waiting, biding Her time. But some days Her call would be more insistent and She would reach out to Her children, Her mates. Days like these...
He pressed closely against the Southern City Wall, his fingers curled into a piece of cloth that carried her flowery scent, his anchor into his new being.
Her call had pulled him here, he couldn´t have stayed away; close enough to hear Her voice yet far enough to resist... hopefully.
His eyes watched Her ever restless body to the east, even here, far away from where She took Her tithe, chose Her playthings, companions and loves the signs of her fury were unmistakeable. The storm would rage out there, shredding sails and breaking masts, more to the south, it seemed. A good sign, most likely no-one he knew would find his way to Her this night.
And suddenly, with a satisfied moan carried upon the winds, it was over. His hands clutched the tattered remains of a brightly coloured skirt to his face, filling his head with peace and the strength to move away, away from Her who he once called his love to the one that was his Love now, his anchor, the founding stone of his new self.
*As written by Stewan Seagull about the Sea and T'lara. To be added to The Stories of the "Dark" Woman*
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
A terrible loss...
Ilona kissed Kal lovingly, "We will be fine dear. Mother and Father need to meet their new grandson. I know you have your missions to take care of. I love you."
The ship launched from their home-made dock. Ilona and her two girls waving and yelling their love and missings of their new father as the sails rolled down from their resting places. Ilona's eyes filled with tears as she blew kisses to her beloved husband. She would miss him the most, he was her soul-mate. The first man to truly show her love and happiness. She would wait up for hours for him when he was out on a mission, worried, yet it would all disappear in a flash as he strolled in the doorway of their new home.
Their home faded in the distance, Ilona borrowed the captains' spyglass and looked back towards home, he was still there waving to them. She smiled a little and whispered softly, "I love you Kal, with all my heart."
The warm sun blanketed the deck of the ship as the island disappeared over the horizon. She so badly wished he could have come with them on their voyage, but she knew his duty to Cove was as important to him as his family. Day turned to night as they headed towards Jhelom. The warm air kissed her cheeks as she sat there half asleep against the mainsail next to their sleeping children. Her eyes opened quickly as she groggily whispered out loud, "Kal?" But alas, it was only the wind. Never in her life had she ever felt such love for any man. Checking over their children she sighed happily, "I am truly blessed."
Morning came, but not the sun. Thick black clouds loomed overhead, lightning raced across the clouds, then down. Ilona grabbed the girls and clutched onto "Cory" (full name Cor'Ari Ta) and headed towards the lower deck. Rain spat hard across the deck, the crew racing to their positions to battle against the coming storm. She dashed towards the stairs to the lower deck as a flash of light and a thunderous clap shook the ship violently. She turned towards the flash of light as she hurried the girls down the stairs.
Splinters flew everywhere at the mast exploded from the lightning strike, Ilona shielded little "Cory" with her body. The pain raced through her body as the splinters tore into her back, Cory screaming in fear from the noise. Down she stumbled into the lower deck. Isis and Harley crying as they clung to their mother. "Mommy I want daddy!" They both screamed in fear as the thunder rumbled through the ship. Their tears streaming down their cheeks while the ship was tossed to and fro. "Shhh, Daddy always shows up when we need him most, you know that." Oh how she wished he was there with them now, so she could hold him close, to ease her fear...
The storm raged on throughout the day, the seas churned and crashed, yet in a blink of an eye, the storm disappeared, the sea... calm... empty...
Official Report from Jhelom: Search parties sent out to find the ship, the B.o.C TraderHorn have found no trace of the ship, crew or passengers anywhere. Ship is considered sunk, with all on board.
*this story to be added to The Stories of the "Dark" Woman*
The ship launched from their home-made dock. Ilona and her two girls waving and yelling their love and missings of their new father as the sails rolled down from their resting places. Ilona's eyes filled with tears as she blew kisses to her beloved husband. She would miss him the most, he was her soul-mate. The first man to truly show her love and happiness. She would wait up for hours for him when he was out on a mission, worried, yet it would all disappear in a flash as he strolled in the doorway of their new home.
Their home faded in the distance, Ilona borrowed the captains' spyglass and looked back towards home, he was still there waving to them. She smiled a little and whispered softly, "I love you Kal, with all my heart."
The warm sun blanketed the deck of the ship as the island disappeared over the horizon. She so badly wished he could have come with them on their voyage, but she knew his duty to Cove was as important to him as his family. Day turned to night as they headed towards Jhelom. The warm air kissed her cheeks as she sat there half asleep against the mainsail next to their sleeping children. Her eyes opened quickly as she groggily whispered out loud, "Kal?" But alas, it was only the wind. Never in her life had she ever felt such love for any man. Checking over their children she sighed happily, "I am truly blessed."
Morning came, but not the sun. Thick black clouds loomed overhead, lightning raced across the clouds, then down. Ilona grabbed the girls and clutched onto "Cory" (full name Cor'Ari Ta) and headed towards the lower deck. Rain spat hard across the deck, the crew racing to their positions to battle against the coming storm. She dashed towards the stairs to the lower deck as a flash of light and a thunderous clap shook the ship violently. She turned towards the flash of light as she hurried the girls down the stairs.
Splinters flew everywhere at the mast exploded from the lightning strike, Ilona shielded little "Cory" with her body. The pain raced through her body as the splinters tore into her back, Cory screaming in fear from the noise. Down she stumbled into the lower deck. Isis and Harley crying as they clung to their mother. "Mommy I want daddy!" They both screamed in fear as the thunder rumbled through the ship. Their tears streaming down their cheeks while the ship was tossed to and fro. "Shhh, Daddy always shows up when we need him most, you know that." Oh how she wished he was there with them now, so she could hold him close, to ease her fear...
The storm raged on throughout the day, the seas churned and crashed, yet in a blink of an eye, the storm disappeared, the sea... calm... empty...
Official Report from Jhelom: Search parties sent out to find the ship, the B.o.C TraderHorn have found no trace of the ship, crew or passengers anywhere. Ship is considered sunk, with all on board.
*this story to be added to The Stories of the "Dark" Woman*
Sunday, May 10, 2009
The Tale of Ryan Graystone (rough draft)
Night brought forth it's dark fingers as Ryan walked forth into it's blackness. The dreary sounds of the creatures rang forth throughout the cold forest. He had traveled for to long, he would have to make camp in the chill of the night. Flint sparked against steal as he lit his torch to stay off the nights' blackness. A suitable spot, somewhere high and dry he looked for, with none to be found.
Disheartened, Ryan braced his torch into the limb of a tree and began clearing a spot for his bedroll, this place was as good as any he thought. His heavy boot steps crunched through the foliage as he gathered fallen branches and logs for his fire. Such a recruit mistake, he thought to himself as he dragged the gathered wood behind him. To not make camp before dark was not like him, his thoughts were else where. Someplace far away now...
... Sun shined through her golden locks of hair as Ryan held her in his arms. She was the one for him, his one true love for the rest of time. The smell of her hair as it fell across his face, still lingered in his nostrils. This day could not get any better he thought, everything was perfect. Hand in hand they strolled through the dirt covered streets of cove and across to the Altmere. They were going to their favorite place to sit and talk at the edge of Coves' boundary. Things had been quiet, peaceful, never did the loving couple think of what would change their lives forever would find them on this perfect day...
...The fire of his campsite slowly began to grow, it's deadly dance of flames creeping up the bits of twigs and bark like a Way-watcher on the hunt. It's warmth slowly spreading as it's hungry flames slowly devoured their prey. He slowly added more food to the ravenous flames while laying out his bedroll over some pine branches. It was not his best work, but it would have to do for the night. Another log into the fire, his pack crumpled up underneath his head, he began to drift off. Off to a simpler time, a peaceful time. He twisted and turned on his bedroll, his eyes turning back to the flames...
... Flames lept from the forest, the loving couple turning to run away from the flames. Their feet taking flight as they gripped each others hands tightly. Out of the smoke Ryan felt a sickening thud slam into his chest. His lovers hand wrenched from his as he was forced back by the blow.
His eyes barely able to focus after the massive blow, he looked up as he heard her terrified screams above him. His eyes struggling to focus, her screams blood curdling, he felt a heavy foot against his chest. It felt like a giant hoof as his hands tried to stop it from holding him down. As he looked up towards her cries for help he came face to face with what held him down, a Minotaur. It'd foul breath crashed against his face, robbing him of his next breath. Fire filled it's black eyes as it stared down at him. With a heavy snort the minotaur stood up and held his prize high in the air above it's blackened horns. With a mighty swish of it's hoofed foot it sent Ryan across the open field and into the brambles. He could feel the heavy footsteps as the minotaur walked away with his love...
... The crackle and pops of the fire echoed in his ears as he laid there not able to sleep. He was healed now and had sworn to retrieve her and bring her back to Cove where she belonged, no matter what the cost. Tears formed in his eyes as he thought of her, his heart aching for her smile. It drove him forward, kept him focused on his task. Years of fighting came back in a flash on that grim day, never would he let them fade into the background again.
The moon cast its' eerie shadows amongst the trees, his weapon clutched in his hand, Ryan finally drifted off to sleep.
Morning climbed slowly through the blackness as Ryan stirred in his make shift bed. The early morning dew sprinkled as far as the eye could see, greeted him as he awoke. Rubbing his eyes and with a great stretch he turned to the dieing fires' coals, now blackened and gray. Stoking it up with fresh food and a soft blow from his lips brought the fire to life once more. A bit of tea and a few stale muffins made for a bland breakfast. But he could waste no more time to complete his self imposed quest. Hastily he rolled up his bedroll and kicked dirt upon the fire. Onwards he went, deeper into the woods after his prize.
Hours passed into days as he searched for the minotaurs lair. His heart heavy with the thought of finding her dead. Step after step he trudged on, deep in his soul he had to know, and avenge her either way.
Something did not feel right, the forest was to quiet suddenly. Ryan gripped his weapon as he brought it out to his side. All of his senses were on high alert as he crept forward. Eyes dashed to and fro as he moved carefully onwards. This feeling was not new to him, many a battle with the Yewish Way-watchers had honed his alertness. Nothing moved, not even a leaf as he stood there.
A mighty crash and a thunderous roar came at him from his right. The sudden shock as he felt the Minotaurs' spear pierce through his side stunned him. His eyes wide with disbelief and pain, never had a wound been this deep before. The familiar snort from the minotaur rumbled through his ears nearly drowning out a delicate voice. Her voice, still she lived, his face grew a peaceful smile. He heard her delicate voice once more as his eyes met hers for the last time.
"We shall eat well tonight my love" she said. A low grunt and a heavy snort filled the air as Ryan looked to her, her belly swollen with child, the beasts child, was the last he saw of her. With a mighty grunt the minotaur thrust the spear. The spear raced through his innards and out the other side...
...his journey ended...
*this story to be finished and added to The Stories of the "Dark" Woman*
Disheartened, Ryan braced his torch into the limb of a tree and began clearing a spot for his bedroll, this place was as good as any he thought. His heavy boot steps crunched through the foliage as he gathered fallen branches and logs for his fire. Such a recruit mistake, he thought to himself as he dragged the gathered wood behind him. To not make camp before dark was not like him, his thoughts were else where. Someplace far away now...
... Sun shined through her golden locks of hair as Ryan held her in his arms. She was the one for him, his one true love for the rest of time. The smell of her hair as it fell across his face, still lingered in his nostrils. This day could not get any better he thought, everything was perfect. Hand in hand they strolled through the dirt covered streets of cove and across to the Altmere. They were going to their favorite place to sit and talk at the edge of Coves' boundary. Things had been quiet, peaceful, never did the loving couple think of what would change their lives forever would find them on this perfect day...
...The fire of his campsite slowly began to grow, it's deadly dance of flames creeping up the bits of twigs and bark like a Way-watcher on the hunt. It's warmth slowly spreading as it's hungry flames slowly devoured their prey. He slowly added more food to the ravenous flames while laying out his bedroll over some pine branches. It was not his best work, but it would have to do for the night. Another log into the fire, his pack crumpled up underneath his head, he began to drift off. Off to a simpler time, a peaceful time. He twisted and turned on his bedroll, his eyes turning back to the flames...
... Flames lept from the forest, the loving couple turning to run away from the flames. Their feet taking flight as they gripped each others hands tightly. Out of the smoke Ryan felt a sickening thud slam into his chest. His lovers hand wrenched from his as he was forced back by the blow.
His eyes barely able to focus after the massive blow, he looked up as he heard her terrified screams above him. His eyes struggling to focus, her screams blood curdling, he felt a heavy foot against his chest. It felt like a giant hoof as his hands tried to stop it from holding him down. As he looked up towards her cries for help he came face to face with what held him down, a Minotaur. It'd foul breath crashed against his face, robbing him of his next breath. Fire filled it's black eyes as it stared down at him. With a heavy snort the minotaur stood up and held his prize high in the air above it's blackened horns. With a mighty swish of it's hoofed foot it sent Ryan across the open field and into the brambles. He could feel the heavy footsteps as the minotaur walked away with his love...
... The crackle and pops of the fire echoed in his ears as he laid there not able to sleep. He was healed now and had sworn to retrieve her and bring her back to Cove where she belonged, no matter what the cost. Tears formed in his eyes as he thought of her, his heart aching for her smile. It drove him forward, kept him focused on his task. Years of fighting came back in a flash on that grim day, never would he let them fade into the background again.
The moon cast its' eerie shadows amongst the trees, his weapon clutched in his hand, Ryan finally drifted off to sleep.
Morning climbed slowly through the blackness as Ryan stirred in his make shift bed. The early morning dew sprinkled as far as the eye could see, greeted him as he awoke. Rubbing his eyes and with a great stretch he turned to the dieing fires' coals, now blackened and gray. Stoking it up with fresh food and a soft blow from his lips brought the fire to life once more. A bit of tea and a few stale muffins made for a bland breakfast. But he could waste no more time to complete his self imposed quest. Hastily he rolled up his bedroll and kicked dirt upon the fire. Onwards he went, deeper into the woods after his prize.
Hours passed into days as he searched for the minotaurs lair. His heart heavy with the thought of finding her dead. Step after step he trudged on, deep in his soul he had to know, and avenge her either way.
Something did not feel right, the forest was to quiet suddenly. Ryan gripped his weapon as he brought it out to his side. All of his senses were on high alert as he crept forward. Eyes dashed to and fro as he moved carefully onwards. This feeling was not new to him, many a battle with the Yewish Way-watchers had honed his alertness. Nothing moved, not even a leaf as he stood there.
A mighty crash and a thunderous roar came at him from his right. The sudden shock as he felt the Minotaurs' spear pierce through his side stunned him. His eyes wide with disbelief and pain, never had a wound been this deep before. The familiar snort from the minotaur rumbled through his ears nearly drowning out a delicate voice. Her voice, still she lived, his face grew a peaceful smile. He heard her delicate voice once more as his eyes met hers for the last time.
"We shall eat well tonight my love" she said. A low grunt and a heavy snort filled the air as Ryan looked to her, her belly swollen with child, the beasts child, was the last he saw of her. With a mighty grunt the minotaur thrust the spear. The spear raced through his innards and out the other side...
...his journey ended...
*this story to be finished and added to The Stories of the "Dark" Woman*
Sunday, March 1, 2009
A Paladins' Thoughts...
Sweet smell of tangled hair,
A soft kiss upon thy lips,
the taste of bitter love upon thy brow.
Sunshine sparkles in thine eyes,
Tender dreams lost,
speak nay a word,
all is said,
with the sweet smell of tangled hair.
To some we might have journeyed for a lifetime,
to others we have just begun,
tho day by day we struggle on,
we fall silently,
we weep and start again...
Pain and glory fill our eyes,
as yet another foe dies,
to some a journey done,
to others one just begun.
Hold thy tongue,
whisper nay a word,
can you hear it calling?
It calls for some,
it calls for all,
yet do we listen to the call?
Whisper nay a sound,
utter nay a word,
it stands amongst us,
calling...
calling...
Shields clash,
swords sing,
the music of death surrounds you,
the tear of flesh,
the subtle fall of a tear,
the sounds of death surround you,
A simple laugh fills your ears,
silenced at the tip of a blade,
For no one can hear the the sounds of death,
as they surround you...
Without evil,
there is no good,
Without good,
there is no evil...
Silence fills the soul,
deafens the ears,
the warmth of a blanket in the cold,
the baking of flesh in the heat,
time takes it's toll,
as silence fills the soul...
Knowledge of ones self,
gives you great strength,
Knowledge over ones foes,
gives thee power over ones self...
Whisper of a mornings dawn,
the icy breath of the nights' kiss,
peace surrounds the battle,
the battle surrounds the peace.
Whisper of a mornings dawn,
tell me a tale of days long gone,
bring forth the morning sun,
fight away the icy breath,
of the nights' kiss...
The soft kiss of the morn's dew,
the sweet smell of it lingers in thy thoughts,
A lovers' embrace,
Holding you close.
Their smile warming the day,
comforting through the night,
children laugh and play,
warriors fight and die,
so that the morns' sweet dew,
and a lovers' embrace,
can be felt by all,
like a soft kiss of morning dew,
this is why,
we live and die...
one step closer,
is one step to far...
heart torn in two,
two halves of a whole,
yet it is over one...
For the smell of sweet tangled hair...
A soft kiss upon thy lips,
the taste of bitter love upon thy brow.
Sunshine sparkles in thine eyes,
Tender dreams lost,
speak nay a word,
all is said,
with the sweet smell of tangled hair.
To some we might have journeyed for a lifetime,
to others we have just begun,
tho day by day we struggle on,
we fall silently,
we weep and start again...
Pain and glory fill our eyes,
as yet another foe dies,
to some a journey done,
to others one just begun.
Hold thy tongue,
whisper nay a word,
can you hear it calling?
It calls for some,
it calls for all,
yet do we listen to the call?
Whisper nay a sound,
utter nay a word,
it stands amongst us,
calling...
calling...
Shields clash,
swords sing,
the music of death surrounds you,
the tear of flesh,
the subtle fall of a tear,
the sounds of death surround you,
A simple laugh fills your ears,
silenced at the tip of a blade,
For no one can hear the the sounds of death,
as they surround you...
Without evil,
there is no good,
Without good,
there is no evil...
Silence fills the soul,
deafens the ears,
the warmth of a blanket in the cold,
the baking of flesh in the heat,
time takes it's toll,
as silence fills the soul...
Knowledge of ones self,
gives you great strength,
Knowledge over ones foes,
gives thee power over ones self...
Whisper of a mornings dawn,
the icy breath of the nights' kiss,
peace surrounds the battle,
the battle surrounds the peace.
Whisper of a mornings dawn,
tell me a tale of days long gone,
bring forth the morning sun,
fight away the icy breath,
of the nights' kiss...
The soft kiss of the morn's dew,
the sweet smell of it lingers in thy thoughts,
A lovers' embrace,
Holding you close.
Their smile warming the day,
comforting through the night,
children laugh and play,
warriors fight and die,
so that the morns' sweet dew,
and a lovers' embrace,
can be felt by all,
like a soft kiss of morning dew,
this is why,
we live and die...
one step closer,
is one step to far...
heart torn in two,
two halves of a whole,
yet it is over one...
For the smell of sweet tangled hair...
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Roses' Ordeal (a slowly growing storyline)
(part 1)
Rose stirred slowly, her head pounding from the battle upon her ships deck. She slowly opened her eyes, but only a blackness surrounded her. There was no light to be seen anywhere. Slowly she tried to stand, only to be stopped abruptly as she did. Cold metal bars greeted her hand in the blackness. She followed them around, searching for the opening of her small cage. Her fingers found the heavy chain and lock that held her in. The rancid smell of vomit and feces filled her nostrils as her senses slowly came to her, the heavy feeling of fear and heartache pressed at her from every direction. Aching from head to toe, she laid there on the cold, wet ground, trying to figure out what had happened.
What seemed like hours passed, she couldn't take it anymore, she screamed at the top of her lungs. Nothing, not a thing at all except her own voice screaming back at her. Had she been left there, thought to have been dead? Her mind ached as she strained to see and figure things out.
The cold dampness dug it's fingers deep into her body, making her hurt even more. The blackness rang out with noise, the sounds of keys rattling against a wooden door pounded in her ears. "Someone had heard my scream and are coming to rescue me." she thought to herself. The latch of the door slapped open, the creak of the hinges sent shivers down her spine as it opened. Light tore into her eyes as it peeked out around the doors' edge, quickly she shielded eyes with her hand.
"Ahh good, Our "guest" is finally awake." the heavy voice chuckled. The bright light from the lantern tore into her eyes like a dagger. She shielded her eyes as her eyes tried to adjust to the sudden siege from the light. Two pairs of hands grabbed at her as the sounds of the keys rattled against the metal of the cage and lock, the sound of the chain clanging against the bars echoed throughout the cave.
With little effort, the hands that gripped her pulled her from the cage, dragging her across the ground. Her clothing, tattered and torn did little to protect her bits of exposed flesh as it scraped and scratched across the rough floor. Her eyes barely began to slowly adjust to the light. she could see the cave walls and ceiling, her heart sank. A gruff voice grumbled as the hands shackled her to a heavy wooden beam. Her eyes adjusting more to the light as she started to look around. A blindfold stripped eyes once more of lights.
"Where is your treasure?" bellowed the gruff voice.
"What treasure?" she responded.
"You lie! Tell me where you hide it!" yelled the gruff voice as she felt a searing rush of pain across her face from a gloved hand. The metallic taste of her own blood bit at her tongue as she spat it out.
"I have only what was on my ship." she replied between spits of blood.
"I desire your most precious treasure you speak of in your diary you useless woman. Give me it's location and spare yourself even worse then you just received." growled the gruff voice. Rose knew what he spoke of as he mentioned the words, but she could never tell him that it was not gems or gold that was the treasure, but her only true treasure, her innocence. For what seemed hours, the gloved hand hit across her face and body as she continued to plead that there was no real treasure, she even resorted to telling the gruff voice it was her books that she called her most precious treasure. But it was to no avail, a heavy hit from the gloved hand knocked her out...
(part 2)
She awoke slowly in the dark cave, her eyes almost half swollen shut from the torture she had received. The rancid smell of vomit and sweat filled the air. She could hear the screams over the cracks of whips as she looked around in the dimly lit cave. The distant flickering of lanterns and torches cast shadows across the walls. Rose sat huddled in the corner of her rusty cage, her body aching. Was this how it was going to be, what were they going to do to her, these thoughts raced around in her cloudy mind. She could barely think straight.
What seemed like hours, she sat as she tried to clear her mind, but as she relaxed and started to gain ground, the aching, a crack of a whip, or a scream of agony would stop her. A loud crash of a door shook her to her core. Bright flames of a torch ripped into her eyes through the darkness. The familiar rattle of keys and the raking of the metal chain on her cage filled her ears. They were back. Rose felt the strong gloved hand grab her ankle. With seemingly little effort, the gloved hand pulled her from the cage. Two more sets of hands grabbed a hold of her arms. Her eyes slowly began to adjust to the bright light of the torches. She could make out the shape of the man who had a hold of her ankles, but could not see much detail.
The gruff voice resounded in her ears as the gloved hands forced her against a heavy wooden beam. The blow nearly knocking the wind completely from her chest. “So, are you going to tell me now where your treasure is, or do I need to continue hurting you until you do?” Roses’ mind raced, she knew what would come next. She had no true treasure like what they sought, only her innocence, her purity. The snap of the whip in the air made her jump. They were not satisfied with her truthful answer to their question. Pain raced through her mind as the sting of the whip ripped deep into her backs flesh. Screams of her own agony ringing in her ears. Lash after lash tore into her body, she quickly lost consciousness…
Rose awoke once again in her cage. Dried blood held what was left of her shirt to her torso. She lay face down on the cold stone floor and bars of a cage. This was not the same cage she had been in before. Slowly she opened her eyes, the dimly lit room barely visible. The shapes of vials and flasks danced in the flickering light as she tried to sit up.
“Ah, good. You are awake.” spoke the gruff voice. Rose turned towards the voice, but saw nothing. She looked around trying to see the owner of the gruff voice but to no avail. “You wrote of your treasure, and I desire it, give it to me and you will not be harmed anymore.” the gruff voice continued.
“I told you the truth, there is only my writings and family. That is my most precious treasure.” she spoke with a ragged breath. Suddenly out of no where came a heavy blow. Her head screamed with pain as the blow landed on the top of her head. With a sickening thump she hit the floor of her cage and then, blackness…
*This story to be added to The Stories of the "Dark" Woman*
Rose stirred slowly, her head pounding from the battle upon her ships deck. She slowly opened her eyes, but only a blackness surrounded her. There was no light to be seen anywhere. Slowly she tried to stand, only to be stopped abruptly as she did. Cold metal bars greeted her hand in the blackness. She followed them around, searching for the opening of her small cage. Her fingers found the heavy chain and lock that held her in. The rancid smell of vomit and feces filled her nostrils as her senses slowly came to her, the heavy feeling of fear and heartache pressed at her from every direction. Aching from head to toe, she laid there on the cold, wet ground, trying to figure out what had happened.
What seemed like hours passed, she couldn't take it anymore, she screamed at the top of her lungs. Nothing, not a thing at all except her own voice screaming back at her. Had she been left there, thought to have been dead? Her mind ached as she strained to see and figure things out.
The cold dampness dug it's fingers deep into her body, making her hurt even more. The blackness rang out with noise, the sounds of keys rattling against a wooden door pounded in her ears. "Someone had heard my scream and are coming to rescue me." she thought to herself. The latch of the door slapped open, the creak of the hinges sent shivers down her spine as it opened. Light tore into her eyes as it peeked out around the doors' edge, quickly she shielded eyes with her hand.
"Ahh good, Our "guest" is finally awake." the heavy voice chuckled. The bright light from the lantern tore into her eyes like a dagger. She shielded her eyes as her eyes tried to adjust to the sudden siege from the light. Two pairs of hands grabbed at her as the sounds of the keys rattled against the metal of the cage and lock, the sound of the chain clanging against the bars echoed throughout the cave.
With little effort, the hands that gripped her pulled her from the cage, dragging her across the ground. Her clothing, tattered and torn did little to protect her bits of exposed flesh as it scraped and scratched across the rough floor. Her eyes barely began to slowly adjust to the light. she could see the cave walls and ceiling, her heart sank. A gruff voice grumbled as the hands shackled her to a heavy wooden beam. Her eyes adjusting more to the light as she started to look around. A blindfold stripped eyes once more of lights.
"Where is your treasure?" bellowed the gruff voice.
"What treasure?" she responded.
"You lie! Tell me where you hide it!" yelled the gruff voice as she felt a searing rush of pain across her face from a gloved hand. The metallic taste of her own blood bit at her tongue as she spat it out.
"I have only what was on my ship." she replied between spits of blood.
"I desire your most precious treasure you speak of in your diary you useless woman. Give me it's location and spare yourself even worse then you just received." growled the gruff voice. Rose knew what he spoke of as he mentioned the words, but she could never tell him that it was not gems or gold that was the treasure, but her only true treasure, her innocence. For what seemed hours, the gloved hand hit across her face and body as she continued to plead that there was no real treasure, she even resorted to telling the gruff voice it was her books that she called her most precious treasure. But it was to no avail, a heavy hit from the gloved hand knocked her out...
(part 2)
She awoke slowly in the dark cave, her eyes almost half swollen shut from the torture she had received. The rancid smell of vomit and sweat filled the air. She could hear the screams over the cracks of whips as she looked around in the dimly lit cave. The distant flickering of lanterns and torches cast shadows across the walls. Rose sat huddled in the corner of her rusty cage, her body aching. Was this how it was going to be, what were they going to do to her, these thoughts raced around in her cloudy mind. She could barely think straight.
What seemed like hours, she sat as she tried to clear her mind, but as she relaxed and started to gain ground, the aching, a crack of a whip, or a scream of agony would stop her. A loud crash of a door shook her to her core. Bright flames of a torch ripped into her eyes through the darkness. The familiar rattle of keys and the raking of the metal chain on her cage filled her ears. They were back. Rose felt the strong gloved hand grab her ankle. With seemingly little effort, the gloved hand pulled her from the cage. Two more sets of hands grabbed a hold of her arms. Her eyes slowly began to adjust to the bright light of the torches. She could make out the shape of the man who had a hold of her ankles, but could not see much detail.
The gruff voice resounded in her ears as the gloved hands forced her against a heavy wooden beam. The blow nearly knocking the wind completely from her chest. “So, are you going to tell me now where your treasure is, or do I need to continue hurting you until you do?” Roses’ mind raced, she knew what would come next. She had no true treasure like what they sought, only her innocence, her purity. The snap of the whip in the air made her jump. They were not satisfied with her truthful answer to their question. Pain raced through her mind as the sting of the whip ripped deep into her backs flesh. Screams of her own agony ringing in her ears. Lash after lash tore into her body, she quickly lost consciousness…
Rose awoke once again in her cage. Dried blood held what was left of her shirt to her torso. She lay face down on the cold stone floor and bars of a cage. This was not the same cage she had been in before. Slowly she opened her eyes, the dimly lit room barely visible. The shapes of vials and flasks danced in the flickering light as she tried to sit up.
“Ah, good. You are awake.” spoke the gruff voice. Rose turned towards the voice, but saw nothing. She looked around trying to see the owner of the gruff voice but to no avail. “You wrote of your treasure, and I desire it, give it to me and you will not be harmed anymore.” the gruff voice continued.
“I told you the truth, there is only my writings and family. That is my most precious treasure.” she spoke with a ragged breath. Suddenly out of no where came a heavy blow. Her head screamed with pain as the blow landed on the top of her head. With a sickening thump she hit the floor of her cage and then, blackness…
*This story to be added to The Stories of the "Dark" Woman*
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